I went through an incredible drama during the last few weeks. I almost quit my job and followed through on what I thought was a heart-centered inspiration to live on the beach in LA and pursue acting jobs full throttle in H-O-L-L-Y-W-O-O-D.
I reconsidered.
I was prompted by external events -- a short play I was in is being expanded into a full length production with a possible Sept performance, I booked two films which will take me through mid-July, and I had a very positive appraisal at the BBC (where I'm an executive assistant) that suggested the company will help cultivate my growth and support a short London job swap this fall.
Furthermore, I have a torn tendon/ligament and am currently undergoing physical therapy. Recon surgery is a pretty strong possibility according to my doctor. Not the best time to venture to LA without health insurance. The Universe could take care of me but I get very anxious when I take big risks, so that's my sign to be patient.
Plus, as much as NY's competitive oasis has bummed me out lately -- and not just because we haven't seen the sun in a month, though that is part of it -- I don't want to leave yet. If I did, it would be on some sort of terms whereby I feel defeated. I hate to lose and I would hate to run from NY short of accomplishing my goals. They are, for any new readers here, to: act professionally in theater, film and television, write/sing original songs and make a music video, write my own film/theater pieces and produce/direct. Also, I want to teach intenSati in the community and if I can heal my ankle, I'd like to teach at Equinox.
So, I will keep on keeping on and going confidently in the direction my dreams. This blog is called Lindspiration for a reason. :)
Peace & Love
