This morning, my quiet time is geared towards focusing on 3 things -- gratitude, honesty and segment intending. The gratitude I am cultivating is for the way my life looks today. When I focus on gratitude, I can remain present and deal with situations without running and hiding from anything or anybody, least of all myself. I had a conversation with a friend yesterday about a fear I've had since I was a child. The fear thought goes, "It's gonna hurt. Bad." I literally have to remind myself at the start of a day that more likely than not, I will not attract pain today. Plus, if there is some pain, I can handle it because the Universe doesn't give you anything you can't cope with (especially if you know who to ask for support). Most importantly, if I repeat to myself that "It's gonna hurt" then the Universe will give me situations that do in fact cause me pain.
So, today I affirm: I am truly grateful for my life. I proceed today with an open heart and trust the Universe will shower me with love, blessings and happy events.
I've been having a field day lately expressing myself. I am telling people exactly how I feel and what I'm thinking. It's taking a lot of courage, but it's really working out for the best, and not because I am necessarily getting every outcome I want, or think I want, but because the people in my life are getting to know me exactly as I am. Then, they get to be fully honest with me, yay!! :) Feelings are funny things, aren't they? They change, fluctuate, expand, contract, disappear, return and remind. One of the hardest things to do is honor emotions without labeling ourselves as weak, hyperemotional or unhealthy. Right? I am committed to being an optimistic, positive person who approaches life with strength as opposed to playing the victim. However, I finally am learning and accepting that all feelings are there for a reason and I am way better off being honest with myself and caring judiciously for whatever emotional state I'm in. Otherwise, it's a lot like throwing shellac on a cracked wall. Just heal the cracks. It doesn't take too long but putting it off, putting it off, putting it off stops the process dead in its tracks.
Finally, with respect to segment intending, which is really just a fancy term for visualizing and feeling a certain outcome, I am paying close attention today to two things. The first is the intenSati class I am teaching at 12:45pm. I've been feeling a little ambivalent lately with respect to my own desires to teach. It's true. I don't know why I'm feeling this way, but I am. When I was a student the other night in Erika's class, I just felt comfy. I liked feeling no pressure and just being able to enjoy myself. So, I think what I most need and want to intend for myself today is that I let go of any pressure I'm putting on myself to succeed, be perfect, say the right thing, attract a lot of students -- all the self centered fear stuff. Rather, I intend to let go and fully enjoy what I'm doing!! If the fear comes up, I will feel it and lead anyway.
The second area of segment intending is simple energy management. Lately, I've been drinking a second cup of coffee at around 3 or 4pm. This is doing nothing for my health and it's affecting my sleep. I don't need it. So, just for today, I will not drink that second coffee and I will meet any cravings with cold water and herbal tea. I intend that my energy flows beautifully -- it is up and I am energized after I teach, then, I maintain a good flow until the early evening. I plan to be in bed by 10pm anyway since I'm staving off a cold, so it's not like I need help staying up!
Thanks for reading and I'm loving all the comments and emails you are leaving me, so please please continue. I hope reading this helps you on your journey today!