From 9:30-5:30 M-F, I work in the Channels department of a large international media company. I am an executive assistant. I've worked as an executive assistant for about 6 years in a few different industries and there are certain things I do very, very well at my job.
Then, there are other aspects where I do NOT perform at anything closely resembling my full potential. One example is how I handle my bosses' expenses for travel reimbursement. This is a common EA duty. The way I've been choosing to see the process for a long is as "annoying, frustrating and tedious." More accurately, the story I tell myself is something to the effect of, "I'd rather be stuck on a desert island without sunblock watching reruns of Jersey Shore than processing expenses." I've made tons of excuses, with my most convincing one being that I simply can't concentrate on expenses with alllllll the other things going on in my office (ringing phones, constant emails, office mate chatter) because I am someone who just musssst have quiet to focus, etc., etc...
The result? Well, let's just say that as the pile of unprocessed expenses grows on my desk, so does my unwillingess. Not to mention my stress! The thoughts just run -- I'll get to it later. I'll do it when I'm done. Let me see who updated their status of Facebook in the last hour. I'll handle this when I am ready...
Procrastinating causes BIG TIME anxiety and yesterday it peaked for me because I had fallen so behind that I missed an important fiscal year-end deadline and, had I not stayed until 8:30pm last night, would've missed the one week grace period that ends tonight.
HI, would you like your self sabotage to stay or to go?
In addition to the selfishness of not getting my bosses their reimbursements in a timely fashion, I was sabotaging my own success. I really believe in the "weakest link" metaphor whereby the sum total of my efforts in all my endeavors -- from EA work to acting, teaching intenSati to writing -- is affected by all links of my chain. If I am seeking to perform at 100% while I teach intenSati, for example, but I am settling for some mediocre, half-baked effort at my office, somehow, it's all connected and I'm bringing down my work as an intenSati teacher. I REALLY BELIEVE THIS to be true, hence my caps, that it's all connected. Conversely, by getting up and writing each day I am instilling a very positive habit which will permeate all aspects of my life in a POSITIVE way.
Let's go for more of those!!!!
It's not to say you're supposed to be perfect or not make mistakes. But the MOTIVATION you bring to one activity can bring UP or weigh down the rest of your efforts and actions.
You're either empowering yourself to RISE or disempowering yourself to sink.
With respect to processing expenses, I really woke up yesterday and began to realize I had created this whole story and situation so I can change it!! Well, I think I knew that for a while but the good news is I WANTED to change. I had had enough of this style of mediocre performance. It was no longer working for me.
Processing expenses, while lacking in the kind of peak excitement as let's say, an intenSati class, is actually a really good skills building exercise. It requires a very close attention to detail, patience, and some light math. There is also a major sense of satisfaction when getting it done. Can it feel boring? Sure, but boredom won't kill me. :) I think there is also some healing for me to do with respect to my attitudes about money. It's no coincidence that I avoid looking at receipts because it calls attention to my own unwillingness to really taking control of my personal finances.
So, there is really room here for a lot of growth and success if I allow and if I CHOOSE.
Are there some areas of your life that you are not giving your full attention, presence or motivation? If so, what's up?! Maybe there is something you're doing that is affecting all areas of your life simply because you decided you don't like it but closer examination will reveal it is a GIFT in your life. If you have a personal or professional equivalent of processing your bosses expenses, maybe today is the day you allow yourself to learn from it what you need to and let the work support your HIGHEST good!
ALSO, look at the POSITIVE effects of what you are creating!! Pay attention to those and watch them GROW!!
Closing thought: I choose to look with open eye at the effects of what I create. I embrace taking responsibility for my actions. I recognize I am at my most powerful when I practice success principles across the board in as many areas of my life as possible!
Have a GREAT day!!!! All best and xo, Lindsay