Good morning!!! It's going to be 86 and sunny today in NYC. 86 AND sunny!! I will be in the office and have my lunch at this adorable little spot a few blocks east of me that has a waterfall. I will bring a book! 86 AND sunny...
One of the affirmations I am teaching this month in my intenSati classes is:
"I'm choosing me!"
Whichever word you emphasize changes the meaning of the phrase considerably, right? Let's focus on placing an accent on the first word, a compound of I AM. "I'M choosing me" gives you this feeling of really taking back your power! Like a lot of people, I have a tendency to fall into this sensibility that I am waiting to be chosen by someone else to receive something I want. By who? It's a sizable list: by a man, casting director, editor, agent, taxi driver during rush hour, anybody running a lottery or contest, such as, oh, a free cruise (turned out to be a scam but you probably knew that!) ...
There's a reason why "A Chorus Line" is one of the most popular musicals of all time and so many people relate to the, "God, I hope I get it!" refrain. Who can't identify with feeling, at one time or another, like one of many in a chorus of hungry people wanting to be chosen for a seat at the feast?
Now, I'm Jewish and so technically I'm already a member of a "chosen" group (capital C) but I don't leverage that feeling into my daily life too often, though I know some do, and maybe I should start now. :) It's painful to live in a constant state of unrequited desire and WAITING while giving over your feelings of agency and power to someone else.
It can make you feel like an 11 year-old with your hand up in the front row of earth science class -- "Oh, oh, oh, I know the answer!! It's an amoeeeeeba!" -- and then crying in the bathroom when not picked.
There is such power in choosing yourself to be the recipient of your own deep love and appreciation. We can be SO good at dolling it out -- he/she is so talented, stunning, lucky, blessed, deserving of success, etc. Today, can you give that same kind of attention, positive praise and props to YOU? After a few years of intenSati, I now breathe a sigh of relief when I release self hating voices and settle into a place of self love and positivity, because I really DO believe I am extraordinary and lovable! YEP!
You know you're making progress when shitting on yourself feels like throwing on a really old jacket that's not only out of style but also totally shrunken. It will not fit, it will not close and that's a good thing. It's also made of itchy wool. You don't like wool. Never did. Can't understand how people wear it. My point!? YOU WANT TO FEEL GOOD and that means old thinking or behavioral habits are just not going to jive with you anymore.
When you choose to TREAT YOURSELF REALLY WELL it can feel weird at first but then, I swear, it's like you eventually start feeling like Goldilocks AFTER she finds the right bed. It's like, ahhhhhhhh, YES, this is true. This is right. THIS GOODNESS IS WHAT I TRULY DESERVE AND WANT! I ALLOW IT NOW!
It's exciting, it really is :) I would use neon, glow-in-the-dark font if that were an option here...
Closing thought: I choose ME to receive LOVE and GOODNESS. I give it to myself and I allow the world to give it to me.
With xo and gratitude! Lindsay
My intenSati classes this week......
Friday at 6:30AM at 17th St subbing for Natalia -- msg me for a guest pass!
Saturday at 10AM in Central Park -- FREE!
Saturday at 12:45PM at Lex/63rd EQ -- msg me for guest pass!
Sunday at 9:30AM at lululemon in Union Square -- FREE!