I just want to report that I successfully carried out yesterday's self care mission, almost to a T, I was just one epsom salt bath short. I braved strong, West Village winds to get the "immune booster" juice from Lifethyme market (GOOD -- http://www.lifethymemarket.com/). I reacquainted myself with folding clothes and cleaned my apartment, I drank special herbal"throat remedy" tea, I rested and, to no surprise, when I woke up this morning I felt calm and content (even though I'm still a bit under the weather)!
It's amazing what some TLC can do for you and I hope you carried out your self care actions yesterday, too. If not, today's a new day!! Take this morning to check in before the day gets going and see how you are feeling and what you need today...
What I want to address here this morning is the topic of a "setback". My father's worked in sales his entire adult life, mainly for a large company and then for himself when he started his own small business (at around age 60 -- total inspiration!) which is going strong today, YES! I can remember times when he would have to contend with losing an account. He sold to nursing homes and hospitals, mainly, and I was usually able to tell at dinnertime if he'd loss some business earlier that day. He would usually say it was "just a small setback, that's all."
Despite my interest in the juicy details of what happened, the discussion would end at that point because he didn't like to focus on it -- smart man! :)
Without exception, the next morning he'd be back at work. He'd look for new opportunities, new accounts, new business. He was always and continues to be PERSISTENT beyond belief. Trust me, if you'd hear this guy work the phones you would think he is making calls to find a kidney donor for someone in ICU. In other words, he's plays with an attitude of high stakes and major importance. Each call, each sale, each interaction matters, A LOT, and he seems to take nothing and nobody for granted. I realize now that if one sale or account doesn't work out then he must feel that at least he can say he did his BEST.
With respect to my teaching intenSati at Equinox, I can hear his voice saying not to worry about losing the class at 33rd/Park. My father would say to pause and "regroup" and then get out there and do the BEST job I can with the class I still have and the ones I sub, all while doing what I can to bring about a new class if that's what I definitely in fact want. Yep, that's exactly what he'd say. :)
Which brings me to a second point. Sometimes a thing does not work out because you don't really want it. Maybe you think you do or fool yourself into thinking you do, but in your heart of hearts you really don't. I'm not sure what's happening in my case but I'm someone who seems to attract a lot of success when I want something 100%, without conflict. It's when I get/feel wishy washy that I don't get big results.
Case in point -- this singer/songwriter retreat I just went on. I had NO conflicts. Very little fear or self doubt. I knew I was just taking myself into a place where I'd be a free, creative artist. Simple. I was like, ready, set, GO!! :) I enjoyed it all and was very creative in the absence of self-induced pressure. I guess you can say I had great "results" in the sense that I wrote a sweet song, sang twice at the gig we played, had an ease and comfort making new friends, and just felt SO GOOD overall.
I think there's something to be learned from why this last weekend went so well for me that could be applied to my teaching intenSati, so I'll have to think about that a little more. I'm all about making the connections!
So, these questions come up for me and I share them with you. Do you really want something but fear is getting in the way? Are you afraid to love something (or someone) because you think it (or this person) won't love you back? Maybe you still carry some limiting beliefs about your talents and abilities that you can let go of today.
I'm definitely going to allow myself some time to meditate and write on this so I can route out what's going on! I encourage you to do the same!
Closing thought: I take any "setback" as a learning experience and a chance to go deeper into my psyche to discover how I really feel about myself and a situation. I am ready to release any doubts and fears that are standing between me and the full realization of my inspired desires. My dreams come true when I allow them to!!!
With xo and gratitude,