Good morning! This is going to be brief because I am heading out soon to teach intenSati at 6:30am......
I was out with some friends last night and the topic of how to clearly communicate with your partner/spouse came up, particularly with respect to boundary setting. I came up with an acronym!! :) It lays out how to express yourself while valuing yourself, the other person and the relationship.
Here it is -- VALUE -- and I hope it helps you when you have a topic or issue to discuss that might be stressing you out a bit!
Validation
Start with validating how the other person feels. I think that's a step often skipped because you think the other person knows you know, but it is good to be direct. So, "I know you're feeling sad (or angry or afraid) about..."
Appreciate
Let the person know you appreciate them and their honesty, their willingness to talk and listen, etc.
Let them off the hook.
I like this one. :) There's usually an unclear expectation of what one person needs/wants from another. If there's anything you don't need from the person, be clear about that -- let them off the hook. Be like, "Honey, I don't need you to give me advice when I'm going through (__)" or "You don't have to fix this." Men like to fix things, right? So, it may help to let them know explicitly when that work is not necessary (so you can conversely let them know when it is!)
Understanding
Ask for understanding. There's something about just gently, calmly and sweetly asking to be understood that diffuses many people's anger or fear. When I was really struggling with with an eating disorder and completely out of control, I remember some people would at times tell me they love/support me even as they could not understand what I was going through. I don't suggest telling someone that. I mean, what I think is a stronger choice is to think about the aspects that you DO understand about a person's experience and tell them about it. For ex, maybe you've never had an eating disorder, so you don't "understand" the mechanics of that experience and behavior, but after listening to the person talk about what it feels like, can you identify with any of the feelings beneath? If so, tell the person you do understand.
Expect a positive result.
I likey this one! End on a positive note here and go with saying and believing you expect this is going to turn out well. However you like to be positive -- there's a lot of space inside this one. You can go with, "I know this is going to all work out for the best." "I believe our relationship can sustain whatever we're going through right now because we love each other!" I like those. :)
Closing thought: I value myself deeply. I speak with honesty and love by adding VALUE to my communication style.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Super Saturday intenSati
10AM in Central Park!
12:45pm at 63rd/Lex!
Msg me for guest passes.............. :)!
Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Same Circumstances, New Attitude
Good morning!! I'm in such a good mood this morning. Not only because my cold/cough is getting better (thanks to Operation TLC which I'm going to do my best to maintain and hope you do, too!) but because I am going back to work today at the office where I am an Executive Assistant. Now, why would be in a good mood about this?
Oh, if you're new to my blog (WELCOME!), the nuts and bolts info here is I fall into the category of "artist with a day job" and it is my full, open hearted intention to be supporting myself financially with my creative passion work, which I do a lot of, from writing to acting to singing and dancing to teaching intenSati (www.satilife.com), YEAH!!! :)
So, back to why I'm in a good mood. Two reasons. The first is because after this weekend I just spent at the singer/songwriter retreat in Vermont, I have restored faith in myself as an artist. I used to think/feel that if I hadn't "made it" or had a "break" by my age (32, say it loud and proud!) it must mean it's because I'm not good enough and it'll never happen. intenSati is not in line with such thinking -- that's an understatement! -- and I found that being in such a creative environment with supportive like-minded/hearted souls this weekend really helped seal the attitude adjustment deal!
So, there's nothing to feel bad about because "it" hasn't happened yet and I pay my bills being an EA. I was not the only one up there who works in an office while pursuing creative work "on the side" with the intention of it becoming front and center. We like strong, positive intentions, right?! YES. In faith, it is also positive to release it to the Universe and trust its timing with the understanding that things DO happen if and when they're meant to, whether it's the career break or finding The One (I'm working on manifesting that, too, yeah!). Intend, release, trust...
The other reason I feel in a really good mood this morning is because I am acutely aware of the powerful way people support me and vice versa. Whatever metaphor you want to use --whether it's HIlary Clinton's "it takes a village", an athletic/sport team spirit mentality or the way in which natural ecosystems are made up of so many parts that need and feed one another, down to the inner workings of a cell -- the point is, we are so, incredibly, beautifully INTERCONNECTED.
When I think of my day yesterday, there were at least 10 people helping me along. More, when I really think about it, and also I was helping people, too. From my writing to a little time with a student/friend after intenSati class, supporting people, receiving love from friends, I mean, the list goes on -- can you practice that awareness this morning of the interconnectedness of your life and the people in it??
I think it's important to really slow down enough to appreciate this. Try making a list of all the people who are supporting, teaching, loving, affirming, challenging and awakening you each day. It's a fun list to make! :)
Closing thought: I am constantly evolving and bringing new attitudes and emotions into my "old" circumstances. I am grateful for the interconnectedness of people in my life and practice the awareness that I am always supported and never alone.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Sati Updates and Announcements!
1. Soooo, we are looking at a new home for my Monday 7AM intenSati class that was just cut from the schedule at Equinox on Park/33rd. The GFM at Columbus Circle (the fabulous Monique) is considering it for June so pleeeeeeeeeease, if this interests you, call her and let her know!!! I would LOVE to teach at CC!!
2. If you still want me on the schedule at Pk/33rd, call the GFM there (the awesome Arnold) and let him know bc he may consider another time slot down the road!! :)! Thank you!
2. MOTHER'S DAY intenSati at ADIDAS Sport Performance Store in Soho, NYC is on for 4pm on May 9th!!! What a cool way to spend Mother's Day, right?! A little intenSati, a little shopping at ADIDAS (30% off all merchandise), a little celebration of mother love -- please spread the word and bring friends to what I PROMISE is going to be an AMAZING time!!
That's it. Long email. It's good, we live in a sound bite culture so let's get all counter-cultural by being longwinded! :) Have a great one!!!!!! xo LD
Oh, if you're new to my blog (WELCOME!), the nuts and bolts info here is I fall into the category of "artist with a day job" and it is my full, open hearted intention to be supporting myself financially with my creative passion work, which I do a lot of, from writing to acting to singing and dancing to teaching intenSati (www.satilife.com), YEAH!!! :)
So, back to why I'm in a good mood. Two reasons. The first is because after this weekend I just spent at the singer/songwriter retreat in Vermont, I have restored faith in myself as an artist. I used to think/feel that if I hadn't "made it" or had a "break" by my age (32, say it loud and proud!) it must mean it's because I'm not good enough and it'll never happen. intenSati is not in line with such thinking -- that's an understatement! -- and I found that being in such a creative environment with supportive like-minded/hearted souls this weekend really helped seal the attitude adjustment deal!
So, there's nothing to feel bad about because "it" hasn't happened yet and I pay my bills being an EA. I was not the only one up there who works in an office while pursuing creative work "on the side" with the intention of it becoming front and center. We like strong, positive intentions, right?! YES. In faith, it is also positive to release it to the Universe and trust its timing with the understanding that things DO happen if and when they're meant to, whether it's the career break or finding The One (I'm working on manifesting that, too, yeah!). Intend, release, trust...
The other reason I feel in a really good mood this morning is because I am acutely aware of the powerful way people support me and vice versa. Whatever metaphor you want to use --whether it's HIlary Clinton's "it takes a village", an athletic/sport team spirit mentality or the way in which natural ecosystems are made up of so many parts that need and feed one another, down to the inner workings of a cell -- the point is, we are so, incredibly, beautifully INTERCONNECTED.
When I think of my day yesterday, there were at least 10 people helping me along. More, when I really think about it, and also I was helping people, too. From my writing to a little time with a student/friend after intenSati class, supporting people, receiving love from friends, I mean, the list goes on -- can you practice that awareness this morning of the interconnectedness of your life and the people in it??
I think it's important to really slow down enough to appreciate this. Try making a list of all the people who are supporting, teaching, loving, affirming, challenging and awakening you each day. It's a fun list to make! :)
Closing thought: I am constantly evolving and bringing new attitudes and emotions into my "old" circumstances. I am grateful for the interconnectedness of people in my life and practice the awareness that I am always supported and never alone.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Sati Updates and Announcements!
1. Soooo, we are looking at a new home for my Monday 7AM intenSati class that was just cut from the schedule at Equinox on Park/33rd. The GFM at Columbus Circle (the fabulous Monique) is considering it for June so pleeeeeeeeeease, if this interests you, call her and let her know!!! I would LOVE to teach at CC!!
2. If you still want me on the schedule at Pk/33rd, call the GFM there (the awesome Arnold) and let him know bc he may consider another time slot down the road!! :)! Thank you!
2. MOTHER'S DAY intenSati at ADIDAS Sport Performance Store in Soho, NYC is on for 4pm on May 9th!!! What a cool way to spend Mother's Day, right?! A little intenSati, a little shopping at ADIDAS (30% off all merchandise), a little celebration of mother love -- please spread the word and bring friends to what I PROMISE is going to be an AMAZING time!!
That's it. Long email. It's good, we live in a sound bite culture so let's get all counter-cultural by being longwinded! :) Have a great one!!!!!! xo LD
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Empowered To Rise: What Do You Do With A "Setback"?
Good morning!!
I just want to report that I successfully carried out yesterday's self care mission, almost to a T, I was just one epsom salt bath short. I braved strong, West Village winds to get the "immune booster" juice from Lifethyme market (GOOD -- http://www.lifethymemarket.com/). I reacquainted myself with folding clothes and cleaned my apartment, I drank special herbal"throat remedy" tea, I rested and, to no surprise, when I woke up this morning I felt calm and content (even though I'm still a bit under the weather)!
It's amazing what some TLC can do for you and I hope you carried out your self care actions yesterday, too. If not, today's a new day!! Take this morning to check in before the day gets going and see how you are feeling and what you need today...
What I want to address here this morning is the topic of a "setback". My father's worked in sales his entire adult life, mainly for a large company and then for himself when he started his own small business (at around age 60 -- total inspiration!) which is going strong today, YES! I can remember times when he would have to contend with losing an account. He sold to nursing homes and hospitals, mainly, and I was usually able to tell at dinnertime if he'd loss some business earlier that day. He would usually say it was "just a small setback, that's all."
Despite my interest in the juicy details of what happened, the discussion would end at that point because he didn't like to focus on it -- smart man! :)
Without exception, the next morning he'd be back at work. He'd look for new opportunities, new accounts, new business. He was always and continues to be PERSISTENT beyond belief. Trust me, if you'd hear this guy work the phones you would think he is making calls to find a kidney donor for someone in ICU. In other words, he's plays with an attitude of high stakes and major importance. Each call, each sale, each interaction matters, A LOT, and he seems to take nothing and nobody for granted. I realize now that if one sale or account doesn't work out then he must feel that at least he can say he did his BEST.
With respect to my teaching intenSati at Equinox, I can hear his voice saying not to worry about losing the class at 33rd/Park. My father would say to pause and "regroup" and then get out there and do the BEST job I can with the class I still have and the ones I sub, all while doing what I can to bring about a new class if that's what I definitely in fact want. Yep, that's exactly what he'd say. :)
Which brings me to a second point. Sometimes a thing does not work out because you don't really want it. Maybe you think you do or fool yourself into thinking you do, but in your heart of hearts you really don't. I'm not sure what's happening in my case but I'm someone who seems to attract a lot of success when I want something 100%, without conflict. It's when I get/feel wishy washy that I don't get big results.
Case in point -- this singer/songwriter retreat I just went on. I had NO conflicts. Very little fear or self doubt. I knew I was just taking myself into a place where I'd be a free, creative artist. Simple. I was like, ready, set, GO!! :) I enjoyed it all and was very creative in the absence of self-induced pressure. I guess you can say I had great "results" in the sense that I wrote a sweet song, sang twice at the gig we played, had an ease and comfort making new friends, and just felt SO GOOD overall.
I think there's something to be learned from why this last weekend went so well for me that could be applied to my teaching intenSati, so I'll have to think about that a little more. I'm all about making the connections!
So, these questions come up for me and I share them with you. Do you really want something but fear is getting in the way? Are you afraid to love something (or someone) because you think it (or this person) won't love you back? Maybe you still carry some limiting beliefs about your talents and abilities that you can let go of today.
I'm definitely going to allow myself some time to meditate and write on this so I can route out what's going on! I encourage you to do the same!
Closing thought: I take any "setback" as a learning experience and a chance to go deeper into my psyche to discover how I really feel about myself and a situation. I am ready to release any doubts and fears that are standing between me and the full realization of my inspired desires. My dreams come true when I allow them to!!!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
I just want to report that I successfully carried out yesterday's self care mission, almost to a T, I was just one epsom salt bath short. I braved strong, West Village winds to get the "immune booster" juice from Lifethyme market (GOOD -- http://www.lifethymemarket.com/). I reacquainted myself with folding clothes and cleaned my apartment, I drank special herbal"throat remedy" tea, I rested and, to no surprise, when I woke up this morning I felt calm and content (even though I'm still a bit under the weather)!
It's amazing what some TLC can do for you and I hope you carried out your self care actions yesterday, too. If not, today's a new day!! Take this morning to check in before the day gets going and see how you are feeling and what you need today...
What I want to address here this morning is the topic of a "setback". My father's worked in sales his entire adult life, mainly for a large company and then for himself when he started his own small business (at around age 60 -- total inspiration!) which is going strong today, YES! I can remember times when he would have to contend with losing an account. He sold to nursing homes and hospitals, mainly, and I was usually able to tell at dinnertime if he'd loss some business earlier that day. He would usually say it was "just a small setback, that's all."
Despite my interest in the juicy details of what happened, the discussion would end at that point because he didn't like to focus on it -- smart man! :)
Without exception, the next morning he'd be back at work. He'd look for new opportunities, new accounts, new business. He was always and continues to be PERSISTENT beyond belief. Trust me, if you'd hear this guy work the phones you would think he is making calls to find a kidney donor for someone in ICU. In other words, he's plays with an attitude of high stakes and major importance. Each call, each sale, each interaction matters, A LOT, and he seems to take nothing and nobody for granted. I realize now that if one sale or account doesn't work out then he must feel that at least he can say he did his BEST.
With respect to my teaching intenSati at Equinox, I can hear his voice saying not to worry about losing the class at 33rd/Park. My father would say to pause and "regroup" and then get out there and do the BEST job I can with the class I still have and the ones I sub, all while doing what I can to bring about a new class if that's what I definitely in fact want. Yep, that's exactly what he'd say. :)
Which brings me to a second point. Sometimes a thing does not work out because you don't really want it. Maybe you think you do or fool yourself into thinking you do, but in your heart of hearts you really don't. I'm not sure what's happening in my case but I'm someone who seems to attract a lot of success when I want something 100%, without conflict. It's when I get/feel wishy washy that I don't get big results.
Case in point -- this singer/songwriter retreat I just went on. I had NO conflicts. Very little fear or self doubt. I knew I was just taking myself into a place where I'd be a free, creative artist. Simple. I was like, ready, set, GO!! :) I enjoyed it all and was very creative in the absence of self-induced pressure. I guess you can say I had great "results" in the sense that I wrote a sweet song, sang twice at the gig we played, had an ease and comfort making new friends, and just felt SO GOOD overall.
I think there's something to be learned from why this last weekend went so well for me that could be applied to my teaching intenSati, so I'll have to think about that a little more. I'm all about making the connections!
So, these questions come up for me and I share them with you. Do you really want something but fear is getting in the way? Are you afraid to love something (or someone) because you think it (or this person) won't love you back? Maybe you still carry some limiting beliefs about your talents and abilities that you can let go of today.
I'm definitely going to allow myself some time to meditate and write on this so I can route out what's going on! I encourage you to do the same!
Closing thought: I take any "setback" as a learning experience and a chance to go deeper into my psyche to discover how I really feel about myself and a situation. I am ready to release any doubts and fears that are standing between me and the full realization of my inspired desires. My dreams come true when I allow them to!!!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Feel Better
Good morning!!
Today's post is going to focus on self care because I am in need of a lot of it today! Yesterday, I came down with a wicked cold/cough. Maybe because I let my defenses and guard down so much over the weekend in Vermont, I did the same with my immunity, unknowingly? I am not sure. Another issue, one I definitely can contribute to my trip, is that the knuckles on my left hand were scaffed and bruised from falling during our hike on Saturday. Nothing heroic, I'm sorry to say. Just a lame attempt to hold a camera and 1.5L water bottle at the same time while scaling a rock. Nope.
Despite bandages and your typical first aid treatment, said hand is so sore and the cut keeps opening up becauuuuuse ... I keep accidentally banging it into things! It's kind of bizarre, really. It is definitely going to take more mindfulness on my end to let this thing heal properly.
The final thing, self care challenge number 3, is the messy state of my apartment. I've heard people say your apartment and its degree of cleanliness and order reflects your mental health. I don't agree because if you hire someone to clean it, it doesn't necessarily mean you're emotionally healthy, it just means you have an extra hundred bucks to hire someone to clean your apartment. However, I will admit that I definitely "act out" by making a mess of my place. It's one of the ways I communicate. To who, I'm not sure exactly, because I live alone. :) The point is if my apartment IS messy, it generally means I'm frustrated by something. I know I'm feeing frustrated to be back in NYC when I want to still be on retreat in Vermont. I really miss the people I met and the closeness I felt -- this is just like coming home from sleepaway camp -- and there's this kind of void I feel that is a little overwhelming to me, honestly, even as I was feeling blissful yesterday at the same time. Emotions definitely co-exist.
As you look at the day ahead, can you make a list of some self care actions you need and desire? It's so important to learn to take care of you and put yourself FIRST so you can be available to others at full strength, right? One of the advantages of being single and not having roommates is I really get the chance to practice this and build strong self-care habits. I've gotta take care of me!! I hope you take time to do the same today!
Here is my list:
1. Today, to deal with my cold/cough, I will take two hot baths in epsom salts. I will drink plenty of water and at least one fresh juice that's an "immunity buster" or however else they label it at the juice store. I will do a meditation that focuses on healing respiratory ailments (I have an audio) and I will stop saying "I'm sick" right now and repeat "My body is restored to a state of perfect health."
2. I will move at a slower pace so that I am more mindful of where my left hand is, thus allowing time for it to heal. I will cover it with a bandage and ointment again, after I clean it out this morning.
3. I will clean my apartment!! I recognize that it looks big and overwhelming but I don't live in Daddy Warbuck's mansion and I've inherited some crazy good apartment cleaning skillzzzz from my parents, so this really shouldn't take me that long.
4. I will continue to interact on Facebook with all the new, amazing friends I made at Good Commons but I will not spend more than about an hour total. I have a lot of other things to work on today, including a meeting at ADIDAS downtown in Soho to iron out the details for the free intenSati special event I'm doing on Mother's Day (May 9th at 4pm!) that I hope you attend!!
Well, that's definitely a start. I totally support you and your intention to practice self-care today, too!! I hope you put yourself into real love and wellness mode. Let's do out best to kick anything today that is not serving us or for our highest good!
Closing thought: I take loving, heathy, self-care actions to feel great and restore balance.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Sati Schedule announcement:
I am sad to report that my Monday morning 7AM class at Park/33rd has been cut from the schedule because it was averaging less than 12 people. Thanks to everybody who supported that class and I'm sorry you won't have the chance to take Monday morning Sati with me for now! If you have any feelings about this, feel free to contact the Group Fitness Manager at Park/33rd or any of your clubs, especially if you'd like to request a class of mine be added to the schedule. Thank you! It's all good because when one door closes another one opens, ALWAYS, and I trust this whole process completely. I did my
best!
Today's post is going to focus on self care because I am in need of a lot of it today! Yesterday, I came down with a wicked cold/cough. Maybe because I let my defenses and guard down so much over the weekend in Vermont, I did the same with my immunity, unknowingly? I am not sure. Another issue, one I definitely can contribute to my trip, is that the knuckles on my left hand were scaffed and bruised from falling during our hike on Saturday. Nothing heroic, I'm sorry to say. Just a lame attempt to hold a camera and 1.5L water bottle at the same time while scaling a rock. Nope.
Despite bandages and your typical first aid treatment, said hand is so sore and the cut keeps opening up becauuuuuse ... I keep accidentally banging it into things! It's kind of bizarre, really. It is definitely going to take more mindfulness on my end to let this thing heal properly.
The final thing, self care challenge number 3, is the messy state of my apartment. I've heard people say your apartment and its degree of cleanliness and order reflects your mental health. I don't agree because if you hire someone to clean it, it doesn't necessarily mean you're emotionally healthy, it just means you have an extra hundred bucks to hire someone to clean your apartment. However, I will admit that I definitely "act out" by making a mess of my place. It's one of the ways I communicate. To who, I'm not sure exactly, because I live alone. :) The point is if my apartment IS messy, it generally means I'm frustrated by something. I know I'm feeing frustrated to be back in NYC when I want to still be on retreat in Vermont. I really miss the people I met and the closeness I felt -- this is just like coming home from sleepaway camp -- and there's this kind of void I feel that is a little overwhelming to me, honestly, even as I was feeling blissful yesterday at the same time. Emotions definitely co-exist.
As you look at the day ahead, can you make a list of some self care actions you need and desire? It's so important to learn to take care of you and put yourself FIRST so you can be available to others at full strength, right? One of the advantages of being single and not having roommates is I really get the chance to practice this and build strong self-care habits. I've gotta take care of me!! I hope you take time to do the same today!
Here is my list:
1. Today, to deal with my cold/cough, I will take two hot baths in epsom salts. I will drink plenty of water and at least one fresh juice that's an "immunity buster" or however else they label it at the juice store. I will do a meditation that focuses on healing respiratory ailments (I have an audio) and I will stop saying "I'm sick" right now and repeat "My body is restored to a state of perfect health."
2. I will move at a slower pace so that I am more mindful of where my left hand is, thus allowing time for it to heal. I will cover it with a bandage and ointment again, after I clean it out this morning.
3. I will clean my apartment!! I recognize that it looks big and overwhelming but I don't live in Daddy Warbuck's mansion and I've inherited some crazy good apartment cleaning skillzzzz from my parents, so this really shouldn't take me that long.
4. I will continue to interact on Facebook with all the new, amazing friends I made at Good Commons but I will not spend more than about an hour total. I have a lot of other things to work on today, including a meeting at ADIDAS downtown in Soho to iron out the details for the free intenSati special event I'm doing on Mother's Day (May 9th at 4pm!) that I hope you attend!!
Well, that's definitely a start. I totally support you and your intention to practice self-care today, too!! I hope you put yourself into real love and wellness mode. Let's do out best to kick anything today that is not serving us or for our highest good!
Closing thought: I take loving, heathy, self-care actions to feel great and restore balance.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Sati Schedule announcement:
I am sad to report that my Monday morning 7AM class at Park/33rd has been cut from the schedule because it was averaging less than 12 people. Thanks to everybody who supported that class and I'm sorry you won't have the chance to take Monday morning Sati with me for now! If you have any feelings about this, feel free to contact the Group Fitness Manager at Park/33rd or any of your clubs, especially if you'd like to request a class of mine be added to the schedule. Thank you! It's all good because when one door closes another one opens, ALWAYS, and I trust this whole process completely. I did my
best!
Monday, April 26, 2010
Empowered To Rise: New Sounds
Good morning!
Most of you know I was away in Vermont for a singer/songwriter retreat at a beautiful place called good commons (www.goodcommons.com). I was deeply immersed in new places, people, sounds, tastes, and feelings. I am transitioning back after what feels like a much longer journey than 3 1/2 days. My friend called it "re-entry" and said to me that she hopes mine is gentle.
The intenSati affirmation I want to focus on this morning before I go teach at 7am is "I listen with my heart." We say that with the FEARLESS lunge and an open hands gesture extending out to recognize and affirm how courageous it is to listen to yourself or another person with complete presence and open-heartedness. It's also a generous gift, an offering, that you give yourself and someone else when you listen to them fully.
What I realized while up in Vermont was that I had fallen into a rhythm, or, pattern of trying to tune most things out. Manhattan is very loud to me (and to most!) and whether it's your typical rush hour traffic, crowds on the subway, ambulance sirens (I swear Roosevelt Hospital near my apt has the loudest blare of all) it can give you major sensory overload. Most of us wear our ipods to tune it out. I seek quiet places like Central Park to just chill out.
Then there is the negative self talk. Whether I'm just trying to ignore it or replace it with positive affirmations and thoughts that are realistic and grounded, I can definitely fall into this mindset of "tuning out" when I hear the noise in my head. Sometimes it's like some version of telling myself to "shut up" and even if I don't use those words exactly, that's the energy behind my intention and it doesn't necessarily help the situation.
So, what happened for me this weekend was I found myself being absolutely guided and coaxed into a space where all I wanted to do was listen. It started with the sounds on the bus trip up north, just the light chatter and small talk. Harmless. Sweet. Then, when a few of us sang songs and played guitar -- I don't know what it was but I was so moved by everyone. Instantly. Not one person had a voice that I found irritating. With the exception of the first night -- when some of the people were up until about midnight playing drums downstairs, don't ask :) -- all I wanted to do was listen.
This continued all weekend and it just got progressively deeper. I think it was like when you give your taste buds a rest from sugar, something like an apple or berries taste sweeter to you. The environment --birds tweeting (the kind of tweeting I prefer) at 7am, the sound of an unfamiliar coffee machine brewing my first cup, babbling streams I passed on my morning jogs, the light wind meeting birch tree branches, and crackling logs on the fire pit at night. The people -- their voices, omg, their voices!! So different. Each one, so amazingly different and precious. Sweet angels, raspy rockers -- some voices healed, others were sexy and exciting, still others were jazzy and bluesy and evoked other times, it was like, one sound after another taking me places, transporting me even as I was completely present. Amazing.
Then there were the sounds from me. My voice -- which I let out to sing on the bus ride up, initiating myself and beginning this healing journey to get over "hating my voice" -- was a voice I could stay present to and the same thing happens with my own mind chatter. No matter what I was thinking, and trust me, when you meet and hang out with 14 strangers (and a dog named Stitch) for 3 1/2 days in close quarters, revealing yourself artistically and creatively, you're going to have a lot of new thoughts, I found myself WANTING to listen with my heart to all of them. Fully. I didn't want to tune anything or anyone out, least of all me. There was no intention to shut myself up in any way shape or form, no matter what I was thinking.
So, now I am back in NYC in my quiet apartment and the sounds of the weekend are still with me. I keep singing the songs I heard with lyrics like "It's a perfect day. The sun is shining." and "There is joyyyy to be found..." :) I can't even! You are going to love these artists I met and will introduce you to them all through FB. I can sit with myself and listen to my thoughts, my desires and some insights.
I don't know what it's going to be like going through my day but maybe I'll hear this City differently. I'm changed -- I'm already hearing myself differently -- and I think what I want to try and do is maintain a sense of full, open hearted listening (with the exception of loud traffic, which I will continue to tune out no matter what) and I invite you to do the same.
What is it like for you to listen with an open heart? If you have complete sound overload, can you change your environment today, even if it's just a trip to the New York Public Library or a park? Anyplace where you can intentionally listen and receive new sounds. When your intention is to be affected by someone with whom you have a conversation, to reallllllly hear them, you will be amazed at how differently the conversation goes. You probably won't end up saying much at all and the person your listening to will feel heard in a deep, respectful way. Try not to tune yourself out but rather just sit with your voice and thoughts with acceptance.
Closing thought: I listen with my heart. I accept and honor my voice and listen for the sounds of my soul and those of the people with whom I interact today.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Join me on Mother's Day (May 9th) at the ADIDAS store in Soho, NYC for FREE intenSati at 4pm!
Most of you know I was away in Vermont for a singer/songwriter retreat at a beautiful place called good commons (www.goodcommons.com). I was deeply immersed in new places, people, sounds, tastes, and feelings. I am transitioning back after what feels like a much longer journey than 3 1/2 days. My friend called it "re-entry" and said to me that she hopes mine is gentle.
The intenSati affirmation I want to focus on this morning before I go teach at 7am is "I listen with my heart." We say that with the FEARLESS lunge and an open hands gesture extending out to recognize and affirm how courageous it is to listen to yourself or another person with complete presence and open-heartedness. It's also a generous gift, an offering, that you give yourself and someone else when you listen to them fully.
What I realized while up in Vermont was that I had fallen into a rhythm, or, pattern of trying to tune most things out. Manhattan is very loud to me (and to most!) and whether it's your typical rush hour traffic, crowds on the subway, ambulance sirens (I swear Roosevelt Hospital near my apt has the loudest blare of all) it can give you major sensory overload. Most of us wear our ipods to tune it out. I seek quiet places like Central Park to just chill out.
Then there is the negative self talk. Whether I'm just trying to ignore it or replace it with positive affirmations and thoughts that are realistic and grounded, I can definitely fall into this mindset of "tuning out" when I hear the noise in my head. Sometimes it's like some version of telling myself to "shut up" and even if I don't use those words exactly, that's the energy behind my intention and it doesn't necessarily help the situation.
So, what happened for me this weekend was I found myself being absolutely guided and coaxed into a space where all I wanted to do was listen. It started with the sounds on the bus trip up north, just the light chatter and small talk. Harmless. Sweet. Then, when a few of us sang songs and played guitar -- I don't know what it was but I was so moved by everyone. Instantly. Not one person had a voice that I found irritating. With the exception of the first night -- when some of the people were up until about midnight playing drums downstairs, don't ask :) -- all I wanted to do was listen.
This continued all weekend and it just got progressively deeper. I think it was like when you give your taste buds a rest from sugar, something like an apple or berries taste sweeter to you. The environment --birds tweeting (the kind of tweeting I prefer) at 7am, the sound of an unfamiliar coffee machine brewing my first cup, babbling streams I passed on my morning jogs, the light wind meeting birch tree branches, and crackling logs on the fire pit at night. The people -- their voices, omg, their voices!! So different. Each one, so amazingly different and precious. Sweet angels, raspy rockers -- some voices healed, others were sexy and exciting, still others were jazzy and bluesy and evoked other times, it was like, one sound after another taking me places, transporting me even as I was completely present. Amazing.
Then there were the sounds from me. My voice -- which I let out to sing on the bus ride up, initiating myself and beginning this healing journey to get over "hating my voice" -- was a voice I could stay present to and the same thing happens with my own mind chatter. No matter what I was thinking, and trust me, when you meet and hang out with 14 strangers (and a dog named Stitch) for 3 1/2 days in close quarters, revealing yourself artistically and creatively, you're going to have a lot of new thoughts, I found myself WANTING to listen with my heart to all of them. Fully. I didn't want to tune anything or anyone out, least of all me. There was no intention to shut myself up in any way shape or form, no matter what I was thinking.
So, now I am back in NYC in my quiet apartment and the sounds of the weekend are still with me. I keep singing the songs I heard with lyrics like "It's a perfect day. The sun is shining." and "There is joyyyy to be found..." :) I can't even! You are going to love these artists I met and will introduce you to them all through FB. I can sit with myself and listen to my thoughts, my desires and some insights.
I don't know what it's going to be like going through my day but maybe I'll hear this City differently. I'm changed -- I'm already hearing myself differently -- and I think what I want to try and do is maintain a sense of full, open hearted listening (with the exception of loud traffic, which I will continue to tune out no matter what) and I invite you to do the same.
What is it like for you to listen with an open heart? If you have complete sound overload, can you change your environment today, even if it's just a trip to the New York Public Library or a park? Anyplace where you can intentionally listen and receive new sounds. When your intention is to be affected by someone with whom you have a conversation, to reallllllly hear them, you will be amazed at how differently the conversation goes. You probably won't end up saying much at all and the person your listening to will feel heard in a deep, respectful way. Try not to tune yourself out but rather just sit with your voice and thoughts with acceptance.
Closing thought: I listen with my heart. I accept and honor my voice and listen for the sounds of my soul and those of the people with whom I interact today.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Join me on Mother's Day (May 9th) at the ADIDAS store in Soho, NYC for FREE intenSati at 4pm!
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Bliss and Gratitude
Good morning!!
You know it's a good sign when you go to a singer/songwriter retreat, wake up smiling and can't get your own song out of your head. I am beyond grateful and proud to introduce my little baby -- a realized and beautiful song that I wrote yesterday and performed live on stage last night!!
The Painting Underneath
Music & Lyrics by Lindsay Davis :)
Melody, melody, melody, melodies
Melody, melody, melody, melody
Melody, melody, melody, I'm at ease
Melody, melody, melody, melodies
Colors bright, colors deep, colors crazy, colors bleed
Colors bright, colors deep, colors crazy, colors bleed
Paint me a picture of your life, of your needs...
Paint me a picture of the painting underneath.
Give me a reason I should stay or should I leave...
Tell me, my lover, are you mine or am I free?
Colors blind, colors deep, colors maybe, colors bleed
Colors blind, colors deep, colors maybe, colors bleed
Melody, melody, melody, melodies
Melody, melody, melody, melody
Melody, melody, melody, I'm at ease
Melody, melody, melody, melodies
L*********end*********D
I wrote yesterday morning about some insecurities I was feeling. Thank god I felt those little suckers early on because the awareness (Sati) of how I was feeling and ability to release them led to my feeling creative, relaxed and joyful for the entire day, so much so that I can honestly say that yesterday was one of the best days of my life. EVER.
What helped me shift initially, besides writing to you all and getting some encouraging feedback to just feel and trust the process, was to take a run then practice yoga. There's nothing like running through empty, hilly roads at a high altitude on a clear, sunny day while singing (gotta keep the cardio and talking out loud thing going on even when I'm away from class!) and pausing occasionally to sit by a stream or pond. Then, getting all flexy, stretchy, bendy -- I realize that yoga is an incredible compliment to my intenSati practice and encourage us all to do more of it. Yes!
What followed was just one big flow. In intenSati, when we transition from the upper to lower body series or between moves or phrases of the series, we're building skills that are so applicable to transitioning between phases of our lives, through emotions and feelings, and right into and out of moments. So, yesterday, I went from feeling insecure to working it out...then into my creative process with writing and singing... flow flow flow... the next thing I know I'm creating a song, workshopping it, laughing, singing...playing drums...practicing a duet from RENT...singing Johnny Cash's "Jackson" and acting out both Johnny and June's part (it was really funny) ... performing with my whole retreat group in a crowded Vermont bar full of locals...dancing up a STORM...staying up late with my new friends in a hot tub under clear skies, stars and moonshine...having peaceful dreamzzzzz...
I just want to say I did this all without any alcohol or over/undereating. I was totally sober and present to each moment. WHAT A GIFT.
I feel like I've had this hunch, like, a 25 year hunch, that I was meant to be performing and creating in a really powerful way and that I had all this talent and I WANTED (DESIRE, work it out!) to realize it. I DESIRED to fully express and hone my talents as a singer, writer, actress, dancer -- I'm going to be 33 years old next month and I don't f*$# care anymore, it's like I am JUST finally giving myself permission to just say that this is MY life and I am free and blissed out, passionate and IN LOVE when I do this kind of work so I AM going to do it, fully, with 2 feet in - DONE!!
To say, YES, I AM blessed with a lot of talent so I damn well better use the gifts that god gave me to the fullest -- my language here is strong here, yep, it's intense and so am I, proudly :) -- but this kind of languaging works for me after years of beating myself up and crushing my dreams. I almost went to law school. Now, I'm getting ready to record my demo. GRATITUDE!
I HOPE YOUR HEART WHEELS ARE TURNING. I hope this is inspiring you to open up to your heart and PASSION and stay with yourself!! DON'T ABANDON YOURSELF AND YOUR DREAMS. Just don't. I WOULD NEVER HAVE HAD THE COURAGE OR STRENGTH TO DO ANY OF THIS WITHOUT intenSati and the LOVE/SUPPORT of my friends and mentors. Let people lift you up and support you while you feed your HEART and SOUL!!!!
Closing thought: Time passes but what remains are the deep, true desires of my heart and soul. I create the space and allow my bliss to find me. I am grateful!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
My EQUINOX teaching schedule for this week is:
7:00AM/Monday/33rd St and Park Ave
12:45PM/Saturday/63rd St and Lex Ave
See you in class!
Mark your calendars for Mother's Day intenSati special event at ADIDAS in Soho, NYC! May 9th at 4pm -- FREE intenSati class and celebration of motherhood with discounts on ADIDAS clothing! Sati Soccer moms (and the people who love them) unite!! :)
You know it's a good sign when you go to a singer/songwriter retreat, wake up smiling and can't get your own song out of your head. I am beyond grateful and proud to introduce my little baby -- a realized and beautiful song that I wrote yesterday and performed live on stage last night!!
The Painting Underneath
Music & Lyrics by Lindsay Davis :)
Melody, melody, melody, melodies
Melody, melody, melody, melody
Melody, melody, melody, I'm at ease
Melody, melody, melody, melodies
Colors bright, colors deep, colors crazy, colors bleed
Colors bright, colors deep, colors crazy, colors bleed
Paint me a picture of your life, of your needs...
Paint me a picture of the painting underneath.
Give me a reason I should stay or should I leave...
Tell me, my lover, are you mine or am I free?
Colors blind, colors deep, colors maybe, colors bleed
Colors blind, colors deep, colors maybe, colors bleed
Melody, melody, melody, melodies
Melody, melody, melody, melody
Melody, melody, melody, I'm at ease
Melody, melody, melody, melodies
L*********end*********D
I wrote yesterday morning about some insecurities I was feeling. Thank god I felt those little suckers early on because the awareness (Sati) of how I was feeling and ability to release them led to my feeling creative, relaxed and joyful for the entire day, so much so that I can honestly say that yesterday was one of the best days of my life. EVER.
What helped me shift initially, besides writing to you all and getting some encouraging feedback to just feel and trust the process, was to take a run then practice yoga. There's nothing like running through empty, hilly roads at a high altitude on a clear, sunny day while singing (gotta keep the cardio and talking out loud thing going on even when I'm away from class!) and pausing occasionally to sit by a stream or pond. Then, getting all flexy, stretchy, bendy -- I realize that yoga is an incredible compliment to my intenSati practice and encourage us all to do more of it. Yes!
What followed was just one big flow. In intenSati, when we transition from the upper to lower body series or between moves or phrases of the series, we're building skills that are so applicable to transitioning between phases of our lives, through emotions and feelings, and right into and out of moments. So, yesterday, I went from feeling insecure to working it out...then into my creative process with writing and singing... flow flow flow... the next thing I know I'm creating a song, workshopping it, laughing, singing...playing drums...practicing a duet from RENT...singing Johnny Cash's "Jackson" and acting out both Johnny and June's part (it was really funny) ... performing with my whole retreat group in a crowded Vermont bar full of locals...dancing up a STORM...staying up late with my new friends in a hot tub under clear skies, stars and moonshine...having peaceful dreamzzzzz...
I just want to say I did this all without any alcohol or over/undereating. I was totally sober and present to each moment. WHAT A GIFT.
I feel like I've had this hunch, like, a 25 year hunch, that I was meant to be performing and creating in a really powerful way and that I had all this talent and I WANTED (DESIRE, work it out!) to realize it. I DESIRED to fully express and hone my talents as a singer, writer, actress, dancer -- I'm going to be 33 years old next month and I don't f*$# care anymore, it's like I am JUST finally giving myself permission to just say that this is MY life and I am free and blissed out, passionate and IN LOVE when I do this kind of work so I AM going to do it, fully, with 2 feet in - DONE!!
To say, YES, I AM blessed with a lot of talent so I damn well better use the gifts that god gave me to the fullest -- my language here is strong here, yep, it's intense and so am I, proudly :) -- but this kind of languaging works for me after years of beating myself up and crushing my dreams. I almost went to law school. Now, I'm getting ready to record my demo. GRATITUDE!
I HOPE YOUR HEART WHEELS ARE TURNING. I hope this is inspiring you to open up to your heart and PASSION and stay with yourself!! DON'T ABANDON YOURSELF AND YOUR DREAMS. Just don't. I WOULD NEVER HAVE HAD THE COURAGE OR STRENGTH TO DO ANY OF THIS WITHOUT intenSati and the LOVE/SUPPORT of my friends and mentors. Let people lift you up and support you while you feed your HEART and SOUL!!!!
Closing thought: Time passes but what remains are the deep, true desires of my heart and soul. I create the space and allow my bliss to find me. I am grateful!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
My EQUINOX teaching schedule for this week is:
7:00AM/Monday/33rd St and Park Ave
12:45PM/Saturday/63rd St and Lex Ave
See you in class!
Mark your calendars for Mother's Day intenSati special event at ADIDAS in Soho, NYC! May 9th at 4pm -- FREE intenSati class and celebration of motherhood with discounts on ADIDAS clothing! Sati Soccer moms (and the people who love them) unite!! :)
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Open Up and Play
Good morning!
Well, well, there's lots of great stuff to report from Vermont! The muse came out to play with me yesterday. I love saying that. We did these creative writing exercises and my work was uninhibited and free. I came up with a brand new song! I work-shopped it for a little bit during a songwriters circle and today someone's going to add some chords. Tonight, we're all performing our music at the Outback in town and there's even talk of us recording an album together, which will be a nice little way for us to get our original music out there into the world!
The artists up here are very special. Everybody's so unique and each one brings something so personal to the music they play. I love how we're all storytellers with different perspectives on relationships and love and life -- it's really kind of blowing my mind, actually.
Of course, "wherever you go there you are" and I can't exactly say I left my insecurities at home in NYC. At a few points yesterday, I started clamming up a bit because I was feeling inadequate. I just got quiet and felt like observing and listening to others perform instead of singing and participating. I just stayed present to my feelings and reminded myself how NORMAL it is to feel these feelings. You forget that most if not all artists, even the most accomplished ones, feel that at one time or another. It's just when you're going through that you feel like you can feel like you're the only one. After a good night's sleep, which I did get last night, I feel more ready again to continue creating and putting my work out there...
So, in this gorgeous setting I am just singing and listening to others play/sing music, writing, exercising -- yesterday it was a jog in the morning, yoga class and gorgeous hike in the afternoon -- eating really good homemade food (in moderation, yes!), reflecting, and resting. intenSati teaches me how to love and embrace my life one moment at a time. What does scare me, quite honestly, is that life back home in NYC is feeling very unattractive to me and when I think about going back, I swear my blood pressure goes up and I get upset. Working a 40 hour/week job in an office doing stuff I don't love (great office, great people, good salary, YES, I am grateful, but you know what I'm saying) and doing ALL my passion work which I do LOVE at the crack of dawn, after work and on the weekends -- well, I realize now that I have a new vantage point how $*#( tired I've been and kind of frustrated I feel a lot of the time.
As I sit here feeling rested, mellow and free, I fully realize the difference between this feeling and what I carry around with me in NYC. Sooooo, I'm not sure where to go from here but I'm just sitting with my awareness this morning. Gratitude.
That's the courage of my life today and I guess my offering to you! Your ability to be present to yourself and mindful of how you really feel is something to appreciate. Finding acceptance and intending to transform, not to mention actually putting your intention into actions so that the transformation happens -- all this takes strength. I am grateful for the strength to open up to myself today. I wish you openness and courage to do the same if your heart and soul are asking for an alternative to how you're currently living your life.
Closing thought: I release insecurities and am present, creative, joyful and free! I have the courage to transform my life and continue to intend and affirm my dreams coming true. YES! "Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you imagined." (Thoreau)
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Sati today:
JOLYNN BACA is subbing for me at 63rd/Lex EQ at 12:45PM!
DARBI WORLEY is subbing for me in Central Park at 10AM!
Go and enjoy these two warrior Sati Leaders! ENJOY!
MAY 9th: Mark your calendars for my Mother's Day intenSati Special Event at the ADIDAS store in Soho, NYC!!!! Please msg me for details and/or if you want to help promote and get the word out -- thank you!
Well, well, there's lots of great stuff to report from Vermont! The muse came out to play with me yesterday. I love saying that. We did these creative writing exercises and my work was uninhibited and free. I came up with a brand new song! I work-shopped it for a little bit during a songwriters circle and today someone's going to add some chords. Tonight, we're all performing our music at the Outback in town and there's even talk of us recording an album together, which will be a nice little way for us to get our original music out there into the world!
The artists up here are very special. Everybody's so unique and each one brings something so personal to the music they play. I love how we're all storytellers with different perspectives on relationships and love and life -- it's really kind of blowing my mind, actually.
Of course, "wherever you go there you are" and I can't exactly say I left my insecurities at home in NYC. At a few points yesterday, I started clamming up a bit because I was feeling inadequate. I just got quiet and felt like observing and listening to others perform instead of singing and participating. I just stayed present to my feelings and reminded myself how NORMAL it is to feel these feelings. You forget that most if not all artists, even the most accomplished ones, feel that at one time or another. It's just when you're going through that you feel like you can feel like you're the only one. After a good night's sleep, which I did get last night, I feel more ready again to continue creating and putting my work out there...
So, in this gorgeous setting I am just singing and listening to others play/sing music, writing, exercising -- yesterday it was a jog in the morning, yoga class and gorgeous hike in the afternoon -- eating really good homemade food (in moderation, yes!), reflecting, and resting. intenSati teaches me how to love and embrace my life one moment at a time. What does scare me, quite honestly, is that life back home in NYC is feeling very unattractive to me and when I think about going back, I swear my blood pressure goes up and I get upset. Working a 40 hour/week job in an office doing stuff I don't love (great office, great people, good salary, YES, I am grateful, but you know what I'm saying) and doing ALL my passion work which I do LOVE at the crack of dawn, after work and on the weekends -- well, I realize now that I have a new vantage point how $*#( tired I've been and kind of frustrated I feel a lot of the time.
As I sit here feeling rested, mellow and free, I fully realize the difference between this feeling and what I carry around with me in NYC. Sooooo, I'm not sure where to go from here but I'm just sitting with my awareness this morning. Gratitude.
That's the courage of my life today and I guess my offering to you! Your ability to be present to yourself and mindful of how you really feel is something to appreciate. Finding acceptance and intending to transform, not to mention actually putting your intention into actions so that the transformation happens -- all this takes strength. I am grateful for the strength to open up to myself today. I wish you openness and courage to do the same if your heart and soul are asking for an alternative to how you're currently living your life.
Closing thought: I release insecurities and am present, creative, joyful and free! I have the courage to transform my life and continue to intend and affirm my dreams coming true. YES! "Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you imagined." (Thoreau)
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Sati today:
JOLYNN BACA is subbing for me at 63rd/Lex EQ at 12:45PM!
DARBI WORLEY is subbing for me in Central Park at 10AM!
Go and enjoy these two warrior Sati Leaders! ENJOY!
MAY 9th: Mark your calendars for my Mother's Day intenSati Special Event at the ADIDAS store in Soho, NYC!!!! Please msg me for details and/or if you want to help promote and get the word out -- thank you!
Friday, April 23, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Feeling Passion and Taking Action
G o o d M o r n i n g !
Forgive the spaces, it's just taking me a little longer than usual because I am writing you from Vermont, where things move a whoooooole lot slower than in NYC, even me, though not by much. Yet. I'm still up at the crack of dawn and after I write you I'm going for a jog through these hilly streets (don't worry mom, it's safe)!
I have "two feet in" in the game, which I define as the game of living a passionate life and realizing the dreams that are in my heart. I LOVE intenSati more than I can even say right now for teaching me to access my courage and put myself on a bus with 15 very talented, inspiring, musically inclined strangers all headed towards a retreat house in Plymouth, VT (www.goodcommons.com). I'm so happy to report that the house is gorgeous. It's perfect, actually. It is warm and inviting and the energy is very positive. There are many quilts. The half and half for the coffee is from a dairy barn down the street. I have internet access. All is well. :)
We left NYC around 2:30pm yesterday and midway through our 7 hour ride north, out came the guitars. I closed my eyes and imagined I was on my tour bus. Then, I came back to the moment because it was perfect and complete as is -- I listened to everyone sing songs they wrote along with some covers tossed in and I was completely sold on these people and so happy!
They were ALL SO GOOD and then it was my turn. I felt very nervous -- it was not a very big bus -- and when I said I don't play an instrument (yet), that obstacle was easily overcome. It's called a cappella. So, I said OK and then spoke the affirmation (sort of halfway to myself and halfway out loud) "I am confident now" and swear I did some kind of gesture that almost look like a CONFIDENCE punch but I didn't really take it up to the sky, lest they think I was already choreographing a music video, which wouldn't be a bad thing. As many dreams as your heart can hold!
I took a breath, jumped in and sang my song "On My Own" (which I wrote when I was 20) with a ridiculous vibrato because I was so nervous. Challenge! I survived. I was very happy to get that out of the way. For me, it does not get much scarier than singing my own music a cappella in small, well lit space to a bunch of people I barely know. "On My Own" is a song I wrote about conflicting feelings of wanting to be be in love but not wanting to lose myself in a relationship -- it's about finding that balance between union and independence/individuality. I guess it was cool to sing "On My Own" completely "on my own" but I'm looking forward to working on it this weekend in harmony with others!
So many great moments already in less than 24 hours but one that stood out because of how I received it was this...I was sitting on the bus and a few people were sleeping or just reading except for these two who were playing their guitars. The way we were seated, they were both facing me and on a slight angle so their guitars were just straight on to me. The guy to my left sang a Jeff Buckley song. The woman to my right sang an Indigo Girls song. They each backed each other up and I thought both were exceptional. I had this moment where I just completely relaxed and felt like this is just for me, like this was a gift chosen for me from a Universe that knows me so well it stuck me smack in the middle of a JB/IG sandwich.
The more I think and BELIEVE that the world has got things in mind for me that are for my greatest good, that I simply need to remain open to receive and ask for them, the better things get. It really does start with asking and then believing. So, to get your passion and belief wheels turning, what do you want to receive? What does your heart want to welcome in today?
We all sat around in a circle last night and after introductions talked about what music means to us. Everybody shared so beautifully and I heard myself, as is often the case in group bonding sessions with like-hearted people, in everybody's answers. So many common threads. So many people who need music. Need it. I shared this, too, I said it's just not an option. We all need music to feel and access deep emotions, to dance (quite a few dancers here on this retreat!), to let go, to connect across boundaries, to feel uplifted, for a better understanding of ourselves -- the list goes on and on -- we all did our best to articulate something very hard to define.
So, while I'm a bit tired (only 6 hours of sleep but I figured by tomorrow the VT pace will really kick in and I'm going to get a more complete rest) I am "ready, willing and able" for today! I hope you allow yourself the same gift. I hope you let yourself hear and answer what your heart is guiding you towards. Even if you have a day that's packed and busy, if you can just pull out 5 minutes to sit and ask your heart what it wants and then ask the Universe (if you're comfortable working like that or just send it "out there") to listen.
Can you believe that things are aligning and being set up just for you to help you realize the dreams that are for your highest good? We say in intenSati that each individual is a "co-creator of your own reality" and to me this means one is never alone. There is an exciting world out there to help you become exactly who you want to and are meant to be!
Closing thought: I listen to my heart's desires and passions. With a supportive, guiding energy inside and around me, I am able to do what I've always dreamed of and for that I am SO grateful!!!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Who will be subbing my intenSati classes this weekend on Saturday?!
Jolynn Baca at 63/Lex on Saturday at 12:45pm!
Darbi Worley in Central Park at 10:00am!
Go out and take class with these AMAZING and POWERFUL Sati Leaders!! You will LOVE them as I do!!
Forgive the spaces, it's just taking me a little longer than usual because I am writing you from Vermont, where things move a whoooooole lot slower than in NYC, even me, though not by much. Yet. I'm still up at the crack of dawn and after I write you I'm going for a jog through these hilly streets (don't worry mom, it's safe)!
I have "two feet in" in the game, which I define as the game of living a passionate life and realizing the dreams that are in my heart. I LOVE intenSati more than I can even say right now for teaching me to access my courage and put myself on a bus with 15 very talented, inspiring, musically inclined strangers all headed towards a retreat house in Plymouth, VT (www.goodcommons.com). I'm so happy to report that the house is gorgeous. It's perfect, actually. It is warm and inviting and the energy is very positive. There are many quilts. The half and half for the coffee is from a dairy barn down the street. I have internet access. All is well. :)
We left NYC around 2:30pm yesterday and midway through our 7 hour ride north, out came the guitars. I closed my eyes and imagined I was on my tour bus. Then, I came back to the moment because it was perfect and complete as is -- I listened to everyone sing songs they wrote along with some covers tossed in and I was completely sold on these people and so happy!
They were ALL SO GOOD and then it was my turn. I felt very nervous -- it was not a very big bus -- and when I said I don't play an instrument (yet), that obstacle was easily overcome. It's called a cappella. So, I said OK and then spoke the affirmation (sort of halfway to myself and halfway out loud) "I am confident now" and swear I did some kind of gesture that almost look like a CONFIDENCE punch but I didn't really take it up to the sky, lest they think I was already choreographing a music video, which wouldn't be a bad thing. As many dreams as your heart can hold!
I took a breath, jumped in and sang my song "On My Own" (which I wrote when I was 20) with a ridiculous vibrato because I was so nervous. Challenge! I survived. I was very happy to get that out of the way. For me, it does not get much scarier than singing my own music a cappella in small, well lit space to a bunch of people I barely know. "On My Own" is a song I wrote about conflicting feelings of wanting to be be in love but not wanting to lose myself in a relationship -- it's about finding that balance between union and independence/individuality. I guess it was cool to sing "On My Own" completely "on my own" but I'm looking forward to working on it this weekend in harmony with others!
So many great moments already in less than 24 hours but one that stood out because of how I received it was this...I was sitting on the bus and a few people were sleeping or just reading except for these two who were playing their guitars. The way we were seated, they were both facing me and on a slight angle so their guitars were just straight on to me. The guy to my left sang a Jeff Buckley song. The woman to my right sang an Indigo Girls song. They each backed each other up and I thought both were exceptional. I had this moment where I just completely relaxed and felt like this is just for me, like this was a gift chosen for me from a Universe that knows me so well it stuck me smack in the middle of a JB/IG sandwich.
The more I think and BELIEVE that the world has got things in mind for me that are for my greatest good, that I simply need to remain open to receive and ask for them, the better things get. It really does start with asking and then believing. So, to get your passion and belief wheels turning, what do you want to receive? What does your heart want to welcome in today?
We all sat around in a circle last night and after introductions talked about what music means to us. Everybody shared so beautifully and I heard myself, as is often the case in group bonding sessions with like-hearted people, in everybody's answers. So many common threads. So many people who need music. Need it. I shared this, too, I said it's just not an option. We all need music to feel and access deep emotions, to dance (quite a few dancers here on this retreat!), to let go, to connect across boundaries, to feel uplifted, for a better understanding of ourselves -- the list goes on and on -- we all did our best to articulate something very hard to define.
So, while I'm a bit tired (only 6 hours of sleep but I figured by tomorrow the VT pace will really kick in and I'm going to get a more complete rest) I am "ready, willing and able" for today! I hope you allow yourself the same gift. I hope you let yourself hear and answer what your heart is guiding you towards. Even if you have a day that's packed and busy, if you can just pull out 5 minutes to sit and ask your heart what it wants and then ask the Universe (if you're comfortable working like that or just send it "out there") to listen.
Can you believe that things are aligning and being set up just for you to help you realize the dreams that are for your highest good? We say in intenSati that each individual is a "co-creator of your own reality" and to me this means one is never alone. There is an exciting world out there to help you become exactly who you want to and are meant to be!
Closing thought: I listen to my heart's desires and passions. With a supportive, guiding energy inside and around me, I am able to do what I've always dreamed of and for that I am SO grateful!!!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Who will be subbing my intenSati classes this weekend on Saturday?!
Jolynn Baca at 63/Lex on Saturday at 12:45pm!
Darbi Worley in Central Park at 10:00am!
Go out and take class with these AMAZING and POWERFUL Sati Leaders!! You will LOVE them as I do!!
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Making Light of "Bad" Habits
Hi, good morning!
In yesterday's post, I embedded a video of the famous chocolate factory episode from "I Love Lucy". I watched that clip a few times throughout the day because it just gives me such a good giggle! Even though I used gobbling up chocolates on a conveyer belt as a metaphor for your buying into your own negative self talk -- good one, right? :) -- I could have certainly used that video to talk about my experiences with compulsive eating. Put it this way, if I were acting in a remake of that scene, I would not have much difficulty drawing from my own experience!
I'm grateful I was able to watch and smile because at one point I had ZERO sense of humor with respect to food and how I was abusing it...as for anybody else, well, let's just say they KNEW not to go THERE.
So, while I take my recovery from eating disordered behavior very seriously, knowing full well that if I don't do certain things daily I can slip into old patterns and trade in the amazing life I have now for one filled with misery and unhappiness, I am definitely able to lighten up. I teach the affirmation "I lighten up" with the action for HAPPY in my intenSati series this month (www.satilife.com) and it's so funny because the more I practice this intention, the better I feel and the more I attract people who are full of joy. Some of my family and friends are so, so funny and I guess more so now because I am easier to have fun with now that I am lightening up. You get what you give!
The point of this post is for me to recognize that and share my gratitude for this shift, which I'm only now recognizing as I write, and to see how far I've come from dark times when there was just verrrrry little humor allowed because that's the way I was feeling and set it up. So, I ask you, do you have something like a "no fly zone" that you don't allow the humor planes to enter into? Whether it's you or your husband/wife, boss or friends -- can you think of those areas where they just know you're thinking, DON'T GO THERE?? Maybe that's a point of entry for you, the place for you to go and think about what you're holding onto, like the harsh or fear-based thoughts that are like shades over your window? For me, when I realized that I certainly wasn't that different and my habits, while unhealthy, were not "bad" and certainly don't make me a "bad" person who should carry around a backpack of shame all the time, well, that definitely helped motivate me to take it easy on myself and lighten up!
Closing thought: Ha ha ha. Hee hee hee. I smile and accept my humanity. I attract people into my life who are light, joyful and sweet. This makes me happy!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
5/9 4PM -- MOTHER'S DAY intenSati SPECIAL EVENT at the ADIDAS store in SoHo!!! FREE intenSati class and special discounts on hot ADIDAS clothing. GO soccer moms and the people who love them!!!
In yesterday's post, I embedded a video of the famous chocolate factory episode from "I Love Lucy". I watched that clip a few times throughout the day because it just gives me such a good giggle! Even though I used gobbling up chocolates on a conveyer belt as a metaphor for your buying into your own negative self talk -- good one, right? :) -- I could have certainly used that video to talk about my experiences with compulsive eating. Put it this way, if I were acting in a remake of that scene, I would not have much difficulty drawing from my own experience!
I'm grateful I was able to watch and smile because at one point I had ZERO sense of humor with respect to food and how I was abusing it...as for anybody else, well, let's just say they KNEW not to go THERE.
So, while I take my recovery from eating disordered behavior very seriously, knowing full well that if I don't do certain things daily I can slip into old patterns and trade in the amazing life I have now for one filled with misery and unhappiness, I am definitely able to lighten up. I teach the affirmation "I lighten up" with the action for HAPPY in my intenSati series this month (www.satilife.com) and it's so funny because the more I practice this intention, the better I feel and the more I attract people who are full of joy. Some of my family and friends are so, so funny and I guess more so now because I am easier to have fun with now that I am lightening up. You get what you give!
The point of this post is for me to recognize that and share my gratitude for this shift, which I'm only now recognizing as I write, and to see how far I've come from dark times when there was just verrrrry little humor allowed because that's the way I was feeling and set it up. So, I ask you, do you have something like a "no fly zone" that you don't allow the humor planes to enter into? Whether it's you or your husband/wife, boss or friends -- can you think of those areas where they just know you're thinking, DON'T GO THERE?? Maybe that's a point of entry for you, the place for you to go and think about what you're holding onto, like the harsh or fear-based thoughts that are like shades over your window? For me, when I realized that I certainly wasn't that different and my habits, while unhealthy, were not "bad" and certainly don't make me a "bad" person who should carry around a backpack of shame all the time, well, that definitely helped motivate me to take it easy on myself and lighten up!
Closing thought: Ha ha ha. Hee hee hee. I smile and accept my humanity. I attract people into my life who are light, joyful and sweet. This makes me happy!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
5/9 4PM -- MOTHER'S DAY intenSati SPECIAL EVENT at the ADIDAS store in SoHo!!! FREE intenSati class and special discounts on hot ADIDAS clothing. GO soccer moms and the people who love them!!!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Practicing Faith In Yourself
Good morning!
Yesterday was a really great day for me because the first time in probably about 10 years, I did not consume what has (let's say HAD) become a daily staple in my diet: sugarless gum and diet soda. There were moments when I felt I was going to cave but I rode them out and overall I felt tremendous relief. Go to www.patriciamorenothrive.blogspot.com and get in on the 30-day challenge I'm doing!
This morning I want to talk about FAITH in yourself and your dreams. Maybe you can just pause here for a moment and take a deep breath and exhale. Then, just smile and relax. See what comes up. What are some dreams in your heart -- marriage, children, a career that allows you to use all your creativity and passion, financial freedom, world travel -- that you can open up to today?
Last night, before going to bed, I watched the television show "glee". It is about the trials and tribulations of a high school show choir. Gotta love it. :) I don't watch it regularly but last night I did because the whole episode was a tribute to Madonna and every musical number used a Madonna song. Sue Sylvester's rendition of "Vogue" was a study in pop culture greatness. I can't even write "Sue Sylvester dance on air..." without cracking up.
Anyway, after the show ended, I went on Facebook and updated my status to reflect my desire to be on "glee" should they ever decide to do a Janet Jackson tribute episode.
Here's the thing -- I wasn't kidding.
Here's the other thing -- I didn't doubt that I can achieve this. I felt total faith.
For as many years as, well, for about double the amount of time I've been chewing gum(!), I've wanted to perform. I wanted to sing before I knew I could carry a tune, write before I knew I could string together a sentence, act before I had ever tried uttering a line I didn't think of myself, and dance like Janet or Madonna even though I lacked formal dance training. For one reason or another, I started listening to my heart and "dabbling". Then the dabbling turned into training and the training led to gigs and the gigs led to, "I CAN do this!"
Until it didn't. I mean, until "I can" returned to "No, ah, I really CAN'T" and the doubts would just come in like chocolates on the conveyer belt from that scene in "I Love Lucy". You know which one I'm talking about? With Ethel and Lucy working in the factory. :) Herrrrre they commmmme, faster and faster, one chocolate excuse after another and just like Lucy and Ethel gobble-gobbled those chocolates, I would gobble-gobble my excuses until I talked myself right out doing what in my heart I wanted to do.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4wp3m1vg06Q
Lucy: Hey Ethel, I think we're fighting a losing game!
Omg, that clip is hilarious. To Lucy's point, YES, trying to package and contend with all those chocolates IS a losing game!! Same goes for your excuses and doubts. Let them roll on by and find a new factory which manufactures all the reasons you CAN do something! (Note: Per the above-mentioned "30 Day Challenge" I'm not eating sugar for 30 days so I'm skipping the real chocolates, too. Today's Day 2 -- YES!)
In intenSati, we say affirmations that are positive and designed to shatter doubt and boost your belief. Talking yourself into doing what you love with confidence is at the core of what we do -- YOU are the one who's got to be your best advocate for yourself in this world. Let today be a day you FEEL and THINK that you are TOTALLY CAPABLE and in line for the fulfillment of YOUR DREAMS!!
Then, get going! Jump in the pool! Audition for that new musical, apply for a new job in the industry you REALLY want to work in, write a love poem, work on your 16 bars, sign up for a singles event, end the relationship that was sucking you dry, buy the ingredients for that curry chicken dinner you've been wanting to cook from scratch (maybe for 1, if you just ended the relationship that was sucking you dry) -- whatever it is, just GOOOOOOO!!!!! Go. For. It. :)
Closing thought: Today, I go for my dreams with confidence! My doubts and excuses are like chocolates on a rapidly moving conveyer belt that I don't pick up no matter what! I am heart-centered and passionate, YES!
With xo and gratitude and gleeeeeee,
Lindsay
ps Calling all SOCCER MOMS and the people who love them!! I'm teaching a free intenSati Special Event at the ADIDAS store in Soho, NYC on Mother's Day, May 9th at 3:30pm! I am so excited about this and hope to see you there for what is going to be an incredible afternoon! intenSati and discounts on hot ADIDAS clothing! YES! Msg me for more info. I can be reached at davis.lindsay@gmail.com for any questions, comments or inquirieS.
Yesterday was a really great day for me because the first time in probably about 10 years, I did not consume what has (let's say HAD) become a daily staple in my diet: sugarless gum and diet soda. There were moments when I felt I was going to cave but I rode them out and overall I felt tremendous relief. Go to www.patriciamorenothrive.blogspot.com and get in on the 30-day challenge I'm doing!
This morning I want to talk about FAITH in yourself and your dreams. Maybe you can just pause here for a moment and take a deep breath and exhale. Then, just smile and relax. See what comes up. What are some dreams in your heart -- marriage, children, a career that allows you to use all your creativity and passion, financial freedom, world travel -- that you can open up to today?
Last night, before going to bed, I watched the television show "glee". It is about the trials and tribulations of a high school show choir. Gotta love it. :) I don't watch it regularly but last night I did because the whole episode was a tribute to Madonna and every musical number used a Madonna song. Sue Sylvester's rendition of "Vogue" was a study in pop culture greatness. I can't even write "Sue Sylvester dance on air..." without cracking up.
Anyway, after the show ended, I went on Facebook and updated my status to reflect my desire to be on "glee" should they ever decide to do a Janet Jackson tribute episode.
Here's the thing -- I wasn't kidding.
Here's the other thing -- I didn't doubt that I can achieve this. I felt total faith.
For as many years as, well, for about double the amount of time I've been chewing gum(!), I've wanted to perform. I wanted to sing before I knew I could carry a tune, write before I knew I could string together a sentence, act before I had ever tried uttering a line I didn't think of myself, and dance like Janet or Madonna even though I lacked formal dance training. For one reason or another, I started listening to my heart and "dabbling". Then the dabbling turned into training and the training led to gigs and the gigs led to, "I CAN do this!"
Until it didn't. I mean, until "I can" returned to "No, ah, I really CAN'T" and the doubts would just come in like chocolates on the conveyer belt from that scene in "I Love Lucy". You know which one I'm talking about? With Ethel and Lucy working in the factory. :) Herrrrre they commmmme, faster and faster, one chocolate excuse after another and just like Lucy and Ethel gobble-gobbled those chocolates, I would gobble-gobble my excuses until I talked myself right out doing what in my heart I wanted to do.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4wp3m1vg06Q
Lucy: Hey Ethel, I think we're fighting a losing game!
Omg, that clip is hilarious. To Lucy's point, YES, trying to package and contend with all those chocolates IS a losing game!! Same goes for your excuses and doubts. Let them roll on by and find a new factory which manufactures all the reasons you CAN do something! (Note: Per the above-mentioned "30 Day Challenge" I'm not eating sugar for 30 days so I'm skipping the real chocolates, too. Today's Day 2 -- YES!)
In intenSati, we say affirmations that are positive and designed to shatter doubt and boost your belief. Talking yourself into doing what you love with confidence is at the core of what we do -- YOU are the one who's got to be your best advocate for yourself in this world. Let today be a day you FEEL and THINK that you are TOTALLY CAPABLE and in line for the fulfillment of YOUR DREAMS!!
Then, get going! Jump in the pool! Audition for that new musical, apply for a new job in the industry you REALLY want to work in, write a love poem, work on your 16 bars, sign up for a singles event, end the relationship that was sucking you dry, buy the ingredients for that curry chicken dinner you've been wanting to cook from scratch (maybe for 1, if you just ended the relationship that was sucking you dry) -- whatever it is, just GOOOOOOO!!!!! Go. For. It. :)
Closing thought: Today, I go for my dreams with confidence! My doubts and excuses are like chocolates on a rapidly moving conveyer belt that I don't pick up no matter what! I am heart-centered and passionate, YES!
With xo and gratitude and gleeeeeee,
Lindsay
ps Calling all SOCCER MOMS and the people who love them!! I'm teaching a free intenSati Special Event at the ADIDAS store in Soho, NYC on Mother's Day, May 9th at 3:30pm! I am so excited about this and hope to see you there for what is going to be an incredible afternoon! intenSati and discounts on hot ADIDAS clothing! YES! Msg me for more info. I can be reached at davis.lindsay@gmail.com for any questions, comments or inquirieS.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Empowered To Rise: On Drama
Empowered To Rise: On Drama
Good morning!!
Although my intention was to write "No Drama" what I typed by mistake is "On Drama". No mistake there -- just a happy accident -- and invitation to start my post this morning with what it feels like to be "on" drama.
I can err on the side of the melodramatic and if you read me consistently and identify, well, maybe you're on the same side of the fence. Sometimes? :) Ex: Starting today, I'm gIving up sugar/diet soda/gum and adding a few additional healthy habits for 30 days*. In my head, I can turn this into...
OHH! This is going to be harrrrrrrrd...I am...I feeeel...like Ferdinand Magellan (remember him? yeah, we're back in 7th grade social studies)...taking off to uncertain, possibly dangerous seas...an explorer, if you will, battling mystery and sailing about the GREAT unknown...there will be discomfort...it is already here now, alas, GREAT DISCOMFORT...
Ummm, hello. GOOD MORNING. I'm dropping fructose, Fresca and Orbitz. The uncertain seas will take me to Fairway and a couple of farmer's markets. The "great discomfort" might be my body figuring out a way to THANK ME for being cleaner and healthier (my teeth are already throwing a party)! Now, not to invalidate that I have emotional and physical dependencies on sugar and certain eating habits. I DO. So, yes, it will be uneasy at times, I'm sure. However, the key is not to blow it up and turn the sentiment into a 3D, adobe surround sound entertainment experience like going to see AVATAR at the IMAX theater.
It starts with awareness (Sati) and the recognition of where you might be giving something in your life the Ferdinand Magellan or Avatar treatment. For me, whenever I successfully diffuse my own drama bombs, this feeling of vulnerability arises. I think it's common, especially in NYC where I live, to be in a state of defensiveness. You stay "on guard" in many senses of the word and it's a good thing at appropriate times. Still, with your emotions, putting up so much protection -- like drama -- keeps you disconnected from the real you.
So, when you detox off the drama, you might experience being more of who you are and what's below. Softer, quieter feelings. A longing here or there. A desire to do something new. A recognition. Maybe a reflection.
I've learned that my essence is way more attractive than my drama.
Let's leave the big drama to the things we can't control (like Icelandic volcanic eruptions, now that's drama) and settle into mind, body and heart with a calm tranquility and ease. Find your own voice inside that turns down the drama dial. Is it a coachy voice? "Let it go, come on, you've got this!!" Or, do you have more of a calm, compassionate inner teacher, "Alright, honey. Take it easy. Nothing to worry about here." I use both. :) And a few others. Get creative but remember you are the one guiding your thoughts, feelings and actions today. I say instead of being "on drama" and the rough seas, let's take the easy road less traveled (the one that's paved well and without any potholes).
Go for the peaceful, easy feelings......
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=44_rtJxPg0s&feature=related
Closing thought: I let go of unnecessary drama. I go with the flow and enjoy living with both feet on the ground today.
With a lot of xo and gratitude this morning :)
Lindsay
*Go to Patricia Moreno's blog www.patriciamorenothrive.blogspot.com to learn more about the food plan I'm doing. Join me and a community of people who support each other and share the intention to eat really healthy!!
Good morning!!
Although my intention was to write "No Drama" what I typed by mistake is "On Drama". No mistake there -- just a happy accident -- and invitation to start my post this morning with what it feels like to be "on" drama.
I can err on the side of the melodramatic and if you read me consistently and identify, well, maybe you're on the same side of the fence. Sometimes? :) Ex: Starting today, I'm gIving up sugar/diet soda/gum and adding a few additional healthy habits for 30 days*. In my head, I can turn this into...
OHH! This is going to be harrrrrrrrd...I am...I feeeel...like Ferdinand Magellan (remember him? yeah, we're back in 7th grade social studies)...taking off to uncertain, possibly dangerous seas...an explorer, if you will, battling mystery and sailing about the GREAT unknown...there will be discomfort...it is already here now, alas, GREAT DISCOMFORT...
Ummm, hello. GOOD MORNING. I'm dropping fructose, Fresca and Orbitz. The uncertain seas will take me to Fairway and a couple of farmer's markets. The "great discomfort" might be my body figuring out a way to THANK ME for being cleaner and healthier (my teeth are already throwing a party)! Now, not to invalidate that I have emotional and physical dependencies on sugar and certain eating habits. I DO. So, yes, it will be uneasy at times, I'm sure. However, the key is not to blow it up and turn the sentiment into a 3D, adobe surround sound entertainment experience like going to see AVATAR at the IMAX theater.
It starts with awareness (Sati) and the recognition of where you might be giving something in your life the Ferdinand Magellan or Avatar treatment. For me, whenever I successfully diffuse my own drama bombs, this feeling of vulnerability arises. I think it's common, especially in NYC where I live, to be in a state of defensiveness. You stay "on guard" in many senses of the word and it's a good thing at appropriate times. Still, with your emotions, putting up so much protection -- like drama -- keeps you disconnected from the real you.
So, when you detox off the drama, you might experience being more of who you are and what's below. Softer, quieter feelings. A longing here or there. A desire to do something new. A recognition. Maybe a reflection.
I've learned that my essence is way more attractive than my drama.
Let's leave the big drama to the things we can't control (like Icelandic volcanic eruptions, now that's drama) and settle into mind, body and heart with a calm tranquility and ease. Find your own voice inside that turns down the drama dial. Is it a coachy voice? "Let it go, come on, you've got this!!" Or, do you have more of a calm, compassionate inner teacher, "Alright, honey. Take it easy. Nothing to worry about here." I use both. :) And a few others. Get creative but remember you are the one guiding your thoughts, feelings and actions today. I say instead of being "on drama" and the rough seas, let's take the easy road less traveled (the one that's paved well and without any potholes).
Go for the peaceful, easy feelings......
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=44_rtJxPg0s&feature=related
Closing thought: I let go of unnecessary drama. I go with the flow and enjoy living with both feet on the ground today.
With a lot of xo and gratitude this morning :)
Lindsay
*Go to Patricia Moreno's blog www.patriciamorenothrive.blogspot.com to learn more about the food plan I'm doing. Join me and a community of people who support each other and share the intention to eat really healthy!!
Monday, April 19, 2010
Empowered to Rise: Monday Morning Intention Setting
Good morning!
It's a new day and week, which makes it a great time to do some clearing and set a few strong, positive intentions for yourself!
This morning, I woke up thinking about patience. I am practicing being more patient with myself as I try new things, take on new projects, explore options for myself professionally, meet new people and develop my creativity. All these things take time. No microwave cooking here where we just throw something in, zap it and 2 minutes later -- ding! So, my intention for the day is:
I practice patience with myself and others. I respect that things take time and I don't want to rush anything at the expense of quality and depth.
The other intention I am setting today has to do with the Beauty Image post I wrote yesterday. I have to say, I am so grateful for the responses I get to my writing because not only do I know it's reaching you and affecting how you think about things but your insights really help me understand these issues and topics better. A few people wrote me a reminder that these beauty standards and ideas are so clearly constructed and external. What powerful thinkers and seers we are when we choose what to define as beautiful, and see people in their full essence.
The sunlight bouncing off the trees and flowers in Central Park was simply stunning yesterday, and I felt so happy that I stayed in there a good two hours after class to jog, walk and sit. One of my friends/intenSati students, a life coach, suggested I think about the way each person "contributes" to the beauty landscape and that image stayed with me all day. I leveraged those good feelings when I got home and practiced some really good self care. Then, I wrote for hours and met a writing deadline for a blog I contribute to well ahead of the deadline (by writers standards, anyway, 6 hours) and took such pride in what I wrote!
So, my intention for today is:
I see beauty in me and all around me. I am so grateful for the love and appreciation I show the world and the way it is reflected back to me.
Are you ready to set some intentions for the day? Start simply. I encourage you to use your weekend as a starting point. If some things went well for you, affirm, validate and build on them! For those other things that didn't quite go the way you wanted them to, take a look at your part and where you want to make a correction. Then, set a new intention to support your transformation. If you need any help, drop me a line.
Closing thought: I set powerful intentions for myself today. I am clear, focused and committed to actions and attitudes that are for my highest good!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
It's a new day and week, which makes it a great time to do some clearing and set a few strong, positive intentions for yourself!
This morning, I woke up thinking about patience. I am practicing being more patient with myself as I try new things, take on new projects, explore options for myself professionally, meet new people and develop my creativity. All these things take time. No microwave cooking here where we just throw something in, zap it and 2 minutes later -- ding! So, my intention for the day is:
I practice patience with myself and others. I respect that things take time and I don't want to rush anything at the expense of quality and depth.
The other intention I am setting today has to do with the Beauty Image post I wrote yesterday. I have to say, I am so grateful for the responses I get to my writing because not only do I know it's reaching you and affecting how you think about things but your insights really help me understand these issues and topics better. A few people wrote me a reminder that these beauty standards and ideas are so clearly constructed and external. What powerful thinkers and seers we are when we choose what to define as beautiful, and see people in their full essence.
The sunlight bouncing off the trees and flowers in Central Park was simply stunning yesterday, and I felt so happy that I stayed in there a good two hours after class to jog, walk and sit. One of my friends/intenSati students, a life coach, suggested I think about the way each person "contributes" to the beauty landscape and that image stayed with me all day. I leveraged those good feelings when I got home and practiced some really good self care. Then, I wrote for hours and met a writing deadline for a blog I contribute to well ahead of the deadline (by writers standards, anyway, 6 hours) and took such pride in what I wrote!
So, my intention for today is:
I see beauty in me and all around me. I am so grateful for the love and appreciation I show the world and the way it is reflected back to me.
Are you ready to set some intentions for the day? Start simply. I encourage you to use your weekend as a starting point. If some things went well for you, affirm, validate and build on them! For those other things that didn't quite go the way you wanted them to, take a look at your part and where you want to make a correction. Then, set a new intention to support your transformation. If you need any help, drop me a line.
Closing thought: I set powerful intentions for myself today. I am clear, focused and committed to actions and attitudes that are for my highest good!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Beauty Image
Good morning!
I was with my family yesterday and have this limiting belief that gets activated whenever a conversation comes up around my work as an actress and writer. When someone says "I really see you as a writer" or "the writing is where it's at for you" or "maybe you want to focus even more on the writing" while we're having a discussion about my being a writer AND an actress, this thought pops into my head:
Are you saying I'm too ugly to be an actress?
I think of the line from "Grease" right after the Sandra Dee number
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGLxJRq-jIY
Sandy: You making fun of me, Rizz?
Rizzo: Some people are so touchy.
Guilty! :) You say to me, "You look great in purple!" and I will probably think to myself, "Are you saying I don't look great in green?"
So, obviously, at some point or another (and I know some of the points since I've explored this in therapy) I picked up this belief -- let's boil it down to "I am ugly" -- and as anybody who's ever felt ugly at one time or another knows, that thought can kick the shit out of you if you let it.
I've considered a few ways to deal with this and the first is to let go of needing or wanting to be or feel beautiful at all. I thought that's what "acceptance" meant so I would just have to accept that I don't look like a model and will NEVER look like a model and that's O-K. Furthermore, I just figured any and all kinds of thinking about my looks should be dropped because it is superficial, self absorbed and boring to myself and others.
The other idea I had was that very few people really stand out and most of us fall into the same pool, but what separates some people is how they carry themselves and what they believe about themselves -- confidence. It is usually the person who believes they are beautiful that shines and radiates beauty. Or, the ones who seem to care nothing at all about how they look and therefore don't seem the slightest bit self conscious, just at ease with themselves, seem to project beauty as well.
So, I've tried at various times to get inside both of those mindsets. The result? Well, not so effective. I wrote about my body image the other day (Did I really post a letter to my belly the other day? Umm, yes, I did) but I guess what I'm talking about here is "beauty image". It does not feel good to walk around and get in front of people while expecting them to judge me harshly because that's how I judge myself (not all the time, but sometimes) and I'm all for feeling better, so let's bring it!!
I want -- and I am believing to think it's not just a want but a need -- to feel beautiful and part of my healing is reaching that state of mind and heart independent of the outside opinion of others.
I don't use the action for BEAUTY in my intenSati series this month (you can bet it's going in there next month!) but I've done it throughout the years and it's incredibly powerful, always. To go with the flow and accept your own beauty with others practicing the same intention -- yep, it's amazing. I've definitely felt it but what I'm learning is how to practice it throughout my life when I'm outside of class. So if the healing is not done yet, I at least know I'm making progress -- so important to note your progress, always.
Are you so beautiful...to you? Let's make today one for opening up the pipelines from your heart so that love flows right into your well of self perception. Maybe it's that simple.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WR5_oiayAew&feature=related
Closing thought: I am so beautiful to me.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
I was with my family yesterday and have this limiting belief that gets activated whenever a conversation comes up around my work as an actress and writer. When someone says "I really see you as a writer" or "the writing is where it's at for you" or "maybe you want to focus even more on the writing" while we're having a discussion about my being a writer AND an actress, this thought pops into my head:
Are you saying I'm too ugly to be an actress?
I think of the line from "Grease" right after the Sandra Dee number
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGLxJRq-jIY
Sandy: You making fun of me, Rizz?
Rizzo: Some people are so touchy.
Guilty! :) You say to me, "You look great in purple!" and I will probably think to myself, "Are you saying I don't look great in green?"
So, obviously, at some point or another (and I know some of the points since I've explored this in therapy) I picked up this belief -- let's boil it down to "I am ugly" -- and as anybody who's ever felt ugly at one time or another knows, that thought can kick the shit out of you if you let it.
I've considered a few ways to deal with this and the first is to let go of needing or wanting to be or feel beautiful at all. I thought that's what "acceptance" meant so I would just have to accept that I don't look like a model and will NEVER look like a model and that's O-K. Furthermore, I just figured any and all kinds of thinking about my looks should be dropped because it is superficial, self absorbed and boring to myself and others.
The other idea I had was that very few people really stand out and most of us fall into the same pool, but what separates some people is how they carry themselves and what they believe about themselves -- confidence. It is usually the person who believes they are beautiful that shines and radiates beauty. Or, the ones who seem to care nothing at all about how they look and therefore don't seem the slightest bit self conscious, just at ease with themselves, seem to project beauty as well.
So, I've tried at various times to get inside both of those mindsets. The result? Well, not so effective. I wrote about my body image the other day (Did I really post a letter to my belly the other day? Umm, yes, I did) but I guess what I'm talking about here is "beauty image". It does not feel good to walk around and get in front of people while expecting them to judge me harshly because that's how I judge myself (not all the time, but sometimes) and I'm all for feeling better, so let's bring it!!
I want -- and I am believing to think it's not just a want but a need -- to feel beautiful and part of my healing is reaching that state of mind and heart independent of the outside opinion of others.
I don't use the action for BEAUTY in my intenSati series this month (you can bet it's going in there next month!) but I've done it throughout the years and it's incredibly powerful, always. To go with the flow and accept your own beauty with others practicing the same intention -- yep, it's amazing. I've definitely felt it but what I'm learning is how to practice it throughout my life when I'm outside of class. So if the healing is not done yet, I at least know I'm making progress -- so important to note your progress, always.
Are you so beautiful...to you? Let's make today one for opening up the pipelines from your heart so that love flows right into your well of self perception. Maybe it's that simple.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WR5_oiayAew&feature=related
Closing thought: I am so beautiful to me.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Freeeeeeeeeedom!
Good morning!
Happy Saturday. :) I am feeling my FREEDOM this morning, YES!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FSBIX6rgJ24
One of my affirmations this month is "The past is over and I am free!" I was going through a separation from a guy I was dating. It didn't work out but I was hanging on like egg on a frying pan before the invention of teflon or PAM.
Each weekend for the last two months, yes, it's been over two months since we stopped seeing each other, I've felt bummed in some way, shape or form. No judgments, that's just how it's been. I've been feeling those feelings, talking about them, writing them out, etc., etc., I was "processing". The, I discovered there were/are additional aspects of my past that are over but that I didn't fully accept as such. So, the difficulty I was having letting go was not just about the guy!!
Yesterday, after a great day at work and a really powerful intenSati workout in the 19th st studio with Erin Stutland, something inside of me opened up. I went home after class and lit some candles. I listened in meditation to the rain's pitter- patter for about 20 minutes. Then, I just fell asleep so peacefully. Nothing like passing out from sweet exhaustion as opposed to sweet carbohydrates. Upon awakening, I had this powerful feeling of wholeness and restoration. I felt like everything really is okay, including me. Then, I looked at a postcard I have in my living room with two film titles side by side -- "Life Is Beautiful" and "Happiness" --on a marquee sign. Both films were playing at the same time. It's a constant reminder that when I look out at life through eyes of love and SEE the beauty, I am well on my way to creating my own happiness...
How are you feeling today? Let's start there. :) If you're not feeling free, is it because you are holding onto aspects of your past? Are memories overstaying their welcome? Is your resistance to reality keeping you in some fantasy of what was or could've been, not to mention what you wish will be? Letting go can be painful and feel like you're trying to reach a pot of gold vis a vis a grey, black-and-white rainbow. It's uncomfortable. Dizzying even, at times (in my case), but so worth it when you get to the other side and are living in the moment! That's where your FREEDOM is found!
How about practicing some letting go -- intenSati style -- at home right now!! Start with the GRATITUDE action which involves a light jog in place (option to kick your butt or raise high knees if you want!) and circle your arms (classic aerobics style!). That's GRATITUDE and you can simply repeat the mantra "thank you" and then add the affirmation "the past is over". Next, add the action FREE which is a step touch to the right and then to the left with your arms reaching over your head and then down towards your hips in the direction you are stepping. Sorry if this sounds a bit confusing! :) Just do your best and repeat "I am free". So, there you have it:
GRATITUDE: The past is over!
FREE: I am free!
Go to www.satilife.com if you want to order an intenSati DVD with Patricia Moreno so you can really work it out at home!
I hope you enjoy your day! I'm teaching at 12:45pm at Lex/63rd EQ and would love to see you there! Central Park class is cancelled but may happen tomorrow. Stay tuned for even more FREE outdoor intenSati classes, including one on Pier 66th (at w. 26th St) every Monday morning at 10AM with Greg Stockbridge!
Great stuff all around. Really, THANK YOU for being a part of my life and journey. Wishing you wellness, happiness and great health!!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Happy Saturday. :) I am feeling my FREEDOM this morning, YES!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FSBIX6rgJ24
One of my affirmations this month is "The past is over and I am free!" I was going through a separation from a guy I was dating. It didn't work out but I was hanging on like egg on a frying pan before the invention of teflon or PAM.
Each weekend for the last two months, yes, it's been over two months since we stopped seeing each other, I've felt bummed in some way, shape or form. No judgments, that's just how it's been. I've been feeling those feelings, talking about them, writing them out, etc., etc., I was "processing". The, I discovered there were/are additional aspects of my past that are over but that I didn't fully accept as such. So, the difficulty I was having letting go was not just about the guy!!
Yesterday, after a great day at work and a really powerful intenSati workout in the 19th st studio with Erin Stutland, something inside of me opened up. I went home after class and lit some candles. I listened in meditation to the rain's pitter- patter for about 20 minutes. Then, I just fell asleep so peacefully. Nothing like passing out from sweet exhaustion as opposed to sweet carbohydrates. Upon awakening, I had this powerful feeling of wholeness and restoration. I felt like everything really is okay, including me. Then, I looked at a postcard I have in my living room with two film titles side by side -- "Life Is Beautiful" and "Happiness" --on a marquee sign. Both films were playing at the same time. It's a constant reminder that when I look out at life through eyes of love and SEE the beauty, I am well on my way to creating my own happiness...
How are you feeling today? Let's start there. :) If you're not feeling free, is it because you are holding onto aspects of your past? Are memories overstaying their welcome? Is your resistance to reality keeping you in some fantasy of what was or could've been, not to mention what you wish will be? Letting go can be painful and feel like you're trying to reach a pot of gold vis a vis a grey, black-and-white rainbow. It's uncomfortable. Dizzying even, at times (in my case), but so worth it when you get to the other side and are living in the moment! That's where your FREEDOM is found!
How about practicing some letting go -- intenSati style -- at home right now!! Start with the GRATITUDE action which involves a light jog in place (option to kick your butt or raise high knees if you want!) and circle your arms (classic aerobics style!). That's GRATITUDE and you can simply repeat the mantra "thank you" and then add the affirmation "the past is over". Next, add the action FREE which is a step touch to the right and then to the left with your arms reaching over your head and then down towards your hips in the direction you are stepping. Sorry if this sounds a bit confusing! :) Just do your best and repeat "I am free". So, there you have it:
GRATITUDE: The past is over!
FREE: I am free!
Go to www.satilife.com if you want to order an intenSati DVD with Patricia Moreno so you can really work it out at home!
I hope you enjoy your day! I'm teaching at 12:45pm at Lex/63rd EQ and would love to see you there! Central Park class is cancelled but may happen tomorrow. Stay tuned for even more FREE outdoor intenSati classes, including one on Pier 66th (at w. 26th St) every Monday morning at 10AM with Greg Stockbridge!
Great stuff all around. Really, THANK YOU for being a part of my life and journey. Wishing you wellness, happiness and great health!!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Friday, April 16, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Body Talk
Good morning!!
7 hours of sleep again last night. I hit my mark. :)
I am feeling grateful because my body is in the best shape it's been in for a while. My legs are toned, my shoulders and arms have some really nice definition and, to use the wise words of a friend whose opinion I trust but don't depend on to define me, "you can bounce a quarter off of your butt". A good thing, indeed...
However, what I do have that I have no self acceptance around at all is a very soft belly. I can probably stand to lose 5-10 pounds that would drain from that area, not to mention if I drank less coffee, chewed less gum and had even more water, my bloat would diminish. The only time I ever really lost this belly was when I was playing college soccer and then after college when I became borderline anorexic and weighed only 107 pounds.
I recently lost a little weight and started working on my core but I'm a long way from abs that would put me in a league with Janet (in her prime) though secretly I want it SO bad. Now, not so secretly. But I do! I have this image of myself finally wearing a 2-piece which I haven't worn except in those tank forms where it doesn't really look like a bikini but more like a 1-piece that has a broken, unzipped zipper around the hips. You know what I mean. :)
This is not easy to write about so I'll keep going!
So, yes, your girl Lindsay wants hot abs.
Where am I going with this? I mean this post as well as any plans for my improved body image. Re: the latter, I joined Patricia Moreno's 30-day challenge starting April 20th at which point I'll be trying to give up soda, refined sugars and other habits. As for maintaining said expected weight loss, well, 30 days will likely get extended one day at at time but I'm not going to think about that right now! Go to
www.patriciamorenothrive.blogspot.com for more info and see which of her suggestions you want to commit to for a month!
For this post right here right now, I'm going to try to make some peace with the moment and write a healing correspondence between me and my belly:
Dear My Belly:
Hi, how are you? I know you've found a comfortable presence in my life and you and I go waaaay back. You've been so patient all these years while I ridiculed you and made you a very specific object/target of my personal self loathing. I guess I am sorry I've hated you without skipping a day. I know you do the best you can to fit into clothing that's either too big or too small and rarely just right. You've also been just the right amount of cushion to help me feel protected and not quite as exposed or vulnerable in the world, so thanks for that, too. However, I am writing to let you know that rather than keep you around and hate on you all the time, I am going to try and take some moderate measures and actions to let you go. I'm going to change my diet a bit. I'm going to start visualizing and seeing myself in a really cute bikini. Yes, a bikini. I'm going to stop calling you my "Buddha Belly" and stop believing we are destined to be together forever. I am going to let you go and believe it's possible.
In the meantime, while you're here, I will do my best to LOVE you or at least accept you. You've done a lot for me! I mentioned the protection thing earlier, thanks again, and also you've sustained some of my really weird imaginings, like that pregnancy fantasy I sometimes have where I stand in the mirror and actually imagine myself pregnant bc that's what you resemble -- a preggers bump. Well, I'm turning 33 soon so let's say good bye to that fantasy in faith that I will welcome you back as such when I do in fact, g-d willing, get married and well, pregnant for real!! Thank you for listening. Let's be at peace for now.
Love,
Lindsay
:) Isn't creative writing fun?!
So, maybe what I will suggest to you this morning is taking some aspect of yourself that you are at odds with and writing a letter with the intention of reaching greater acceptance. It really is an interesting exercise and you don't have to share it with anybody, of course. For me, I like sharing this because it takes some of the drama and shame out of it. It's really not a big deal and there is NOTHING to be ashamed of --
IT'S ABOUT BEING HUMAN, YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wishing you a really good day today and willingness to work on yourself with love, care and patience.
I am sending an additional email later with a lot of great updates -- there is so much exciting stuff going on in the Sati community!!! -- so please keep a heads up for that. In the meantime, reminder that my Saturday EQ class is at Lex/63rd tomorrow at 12:45pm and on Monday at 7AM at Pk/33rd. Central Park on tomorrow only if it's dry. I won't be teaching if it's raining!
With xo and gratitude,
xo Lindsay
7 hours of sleep again last night. I hit my mark. :)
I am feeling grateful because my body is in the best shape it's been in for a while. My legs are toned, my shoulders and arms have some really nice definition and, to use the wise words of a friend whose opinion I trust but don't depend on to define me, "you can bounce a quarter off of your butt". A good thing, indeed...
However, what I do have that I have no self acceptance around at all is a very soft belly. I can probably stand to lose 5-10 pounds that would drain from that area, not to mention if I drank less coffee, chewed less gum and had even more water, my bloat would diminish. The only time I ever really lost this belly was when I was playing college soccer and then after college when I became borderline anorexic and weighed only 107 pounds.
I recently lost a little weight and started working on my core but I'm a long way from abs that would put me in a league with Janet (in her prime) though secretly I want it SO bad. Now, not so secretly. But I do! I have this image of myself finally wearing a 2-piece which I haven't worn except in those tank forms where it doesn't really look like a bikini but more like a 1-piece that has a broken, unzipped zipper around the hips. You know what I mean. :)
This is not easy to write about so I'll keep going!
So, yes, your girl Lindsay wants hot abs.
Where am I going with this? I mean this post as well as any plans for my improved body image. Re: the latter, I joined Patricia Moreno's 30-day challenge starting April 20th at which point I'll be trying to give up soda, refined sugars and other habits. As for maintaining said expected weight loss, well, 30 days will likely get extended one day at at time but I'm not going to think about that right now! Go to
www.patriciamorenothrive.blogspot.com for more info and see which of her suggestions you want to commit to for a month!
For this post right here right now, I'm going to try to make some peace with the moment and write a healing correspondence between me and my belly:
Dear My Belly:
Hi, how are you? I know you've found a comfortable presence in my life and you and I go waaaay back. You've been so patient all these years while I ridiculed you and made you a very specific object/target of my personal self loathing. I guess I am sorry I've hated you without skipping a day. I know you do the best you can to fit into clothing that's either too big or too small and rarely just right. You've also been just the right amount of cushion to help me feel protected and not quite as exposed or vulnerable in the world, so thanks for that, too. However, I am writing to let you know that rather than keep you around and hate on you all the time, I am going to try and take some moderate measures and actions to let you go. I'm going to change my diet a bit. I'm going to start visualizing and seeing myself in a really cute bikini. Yes, a bikini. I'm going to stop calling you my "Buddha Belly" and stop believing we are destined to be together forever. I am going to let you go and believe it's possible.
In the meantime, while you're here, I will do my best to LOVE you or at least accept you. You've done a lot for me! I mentioned the protection thing earlier, thanks again, and also you've sustained some of my really weird imaginings, like that pregnancy fantasy I sometimes have where I stand in the mirror and actually imagine myself pregnant bc that's what you resemble -- a preggers bump. Well, I'm turning 33 soon so let's say good bye to that fantasy in faith that I will welcome you back as such when I do in fact, g-d willing, get married and well, pregnant for real!! Thank you for listening. Let's be at peace for now.
Love,
Lindsay
:) Isn't creative writing fun?!
So, maybe what I will suggest to you this morning is taking some aspect of yourself that you are at odds with and writing a letter with the intention of reaching greater acceptance. It really is an interesting exercise and you don't have to share it with anybody, of course. For me, I like sharing this because it takes some of the drama and shame out of it. It's really not a big deal and there is NOTHING to be ashamed of --
IT'S ABOUT BEING HUMAN, YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wishing you a really good day today and willingness to work on yourself with love, care and patience.
I am sending an additional email later with a lot of great updates -- there is so much exciting stuff going on in the Sati community!!! -- so please keep a heads up for that. In the meantime, reminder that my Saturday EQ class is at Lex/63rd tomorrow at 12:45pm and on Monday at 7AM at Pk/33rd. Central Park on tomorrow only if it's dry. I won't be teaching if it's raining!
With xo and gratitude,
xo Lindsay
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Empowered To Rise: My Strength
Good morning!! In this month's intenSati series, I teach the affirmation, "I focus on my attitude, my strength and my gratitude." When it comes to STRENGTH, that quality I sandwiched in between attitude and gratitude, I can't begin to say how much strength I've discovered I have based on the adversity I faced and survived. That's why they say challenging and stressful circumstances become our greatest teachers.
I had overeating tendencies my whole life but severe eating disordered behavior started when I transitioned from high school to college. That period of change and subsequent stress I experienced when I was a freshman at Cornell was unlike anything I had felt before. I was studying premed, playing varsity soccer, and living in a co-ed dorm with zero privacy and a crazy roommate. I had settled for a college that was not my preference (after being rejected by my first choice) and when I started feeling stressed out and upset all the time, my performance suffered in all areas.
I was going through a host of overwhelming angry, hurt, scared, and anxious feelings, including this sense of grief and spacious loss at what I felt I left behind, which was to say a very successful and accomplished childhood (my "identity"), security, popularity and comfort. I had NO idea how to sit with emptiness and not try to fill it nor did I know how to sit with not being "the best" without trying to obliterate myself.
Food filled that emptiness, albeit temporarily and to very negative effect, and as anybody who's ever overeaten or undereaten knows, the same items that can be used for nutrition or celebration can also be a weapon of self destruction. I grew up thinking of myself as a strong person but after I developed an eating disorder, I no longer thought of myself as strong. I very quickly began to think of myself as weak and eventually as sick and it's those two labels for myself -- "I am weak" and "I am sick" reinforced over and over again -- which contributed to a terrible and unnecessary downward spiral.
intenSati and its application of powerful, positive affirmations with challenging exercise routines was revelatory to me when I discovered it because the new, false identity I had formed in college was now being challenged. There's nothing like a good, kick-butt workout performed while shouting "I am strong!! I believe I will succeed!" to wake you up from a self defeating and self destructive slumber. I was taught to stop collecting evidence that I am weak and sick. I was encouraged to collect evidence that I was healthy and strong. I suggest the same for you today.
Can you think of the ways you demonstrate strength and healthy living? I'm sure you have some that you can be mindful of today. Focus on them, celebrate them and if you can't think of any please ask someone who knows you well because I am sure they can tell you a few ways they see you as a very strong person!!!
Your strength and resiliency hinges upon your ability to recognize yourself as strong and resilient. This might sound really obvious. It wasn't to me. I like to be really big and strong in intenSati class because my negativity certainly goes over-the-top and it's effective when I match it in intensity. In meditation, I go to the quiet place where I build strength in a very quiet, gentle, soft and loving way. A different energy entirely and both are working really well for me. I am grateful. :)
Closing thought: I am a strong and healthy person, YES! I recognize that reinforcing my strength makes it grow and I am no longer afraid of standing in my full power.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
MY CLASSES at EQUINOX
7AM on Monday mornings at Park/33rd
12:45PM on Saturday afternoons at Lex/63rd
Guest passes available!
MY FREE COMMUNITY CLASS
10AM on Saturday mornings in Central Park
Message me for info!
I had overeating tendencies my whole life but severe eating disordered behavior started when I transitioned from high school to college. That period of change and subsequent stress I experienced when I was a freshman at Cornell was unlike anything I had felt before. I was studying premed, playing varsity soccer, and living in a co-ed dorm with zero privacy and a crazy roommate. I had settled for a college that was not my preference (after being rejected by my first choice) and when I started feeling stressed out and upset all the time, my performance suffered in all areas.
I was going through a host of overwhelming angry, hurt, scared, and anxious feelings, including this sense of grief and spacious loss at what I felt I left behind, which was to say a very successful and accomplished childhood (my "identity"), security, popularity and comfort. I had NO idea how to sit with emptiness and not try to fill it nor did I know how to sit with not being "the best" without trying to obliterate myself.
Food filled that emptiness, albeit temporarily and to very negative effect, and as anybody who's ever overeaten or undereaten knows, the same items that can be used for nutrition or celebration can also be a weapon of self destruction. I grew up thinking of myself as a strong person but after I developed an eating disorder, I no longer thought of myself as strong. I very quickly began to think of myself as weak and eventually as sick and it's those two labels for myself -- "I am weak" and "I am sick" reinforced over and over again -- which contributed to a terrible and unnecessary downward spiral.
intenSati and its application of powerful, positive affirmations with challenging exercise routines was revelatory to me when I discovered it because the new, false identity I had formed in college was now being challenged. There's nothing like a good, kick-butt workout performed while shouting "I am strong!! I believe I will succeed!" to wake you up from a self defeating and self destructive slumber. I was taught to stop collecting evidence that I am weak and sick. I was encouraged to collect evidence that I was healthy and strong. I suggest the same for you today.
Can you think of the ways you demonstrate strength and healthy living? I'm sure you have some that you can be mindful of today. Focus on them, celebrate them and if you can't think of any please ask someone who knows you well because I am sure they can tell you a few ways they see you as a very strong person!!!
Your strength and resiliency hinges upon your ability to recognize yourself as strong and resilient. This might sound really obvious. It wasn't to me. I like to be really big and strong in intenSati class because my negativity certainly goes over-the-top and it's effective when I match it in intensity. In meditation, I go to the quiet place where I build strength in a very quiet, gentle, soft and loving way. A different energy entirely and both are working really well for me. I am grateful. :)
Closing thought: I am a strong and healthy person, YES! I recognize that reinforcing my strength makes it grow and I am no longer afraid of standing in my full power.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
MY CLASSES at EQUINOX
7AM on Monday mornings at Park/33rd
12:45PM on Saturday afternoons at Lex/63rd
Guest passes available!
MY FREE COMMUNITY CLASS
10AM on Saturday mornings in Central Park
Message me for info!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Your Joyful Attitude
Good morning!!
Last night, I went to the grocery store near my apartment at 6:30pm to buy dinner. I usually get there at 9pm because I'm always doing something directly after work. I noticed how much more populated the market is at 6:30pm. Land of the living, wow! I spoke to my mom about my plan to eat dinner at this more normal time, as opposed to 9pm like I usually do, and my equally ambitious intention to turn off all electronics and curl up with the current New Yorker Magazine (paper version). I knew I'd fall sleep a few pages in but that's not because the magazine is boring. My mom goes to me, "Even Lindsay gets pooped" and I just had to smile. Yes, even Lindsay gets pooped. :)
9 1/2 hours later......kabooey, I am rejuvinated!!!!!! SO, onward and today's post is a reminder to keep the focus on your own attitude today and what you're bringing to any situation. That's one of my intenSati affirmations this month: I focus on my attitude.
When you start painting the picture of negativity before your day even begins, you can really end up feeling "indoors" in all senses of the word. Trapped, stuffy, tired, irritated, and aching for freedom. Next thing you know, one negative thought turns into another and into another, until you're like Kermit singing the blues:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-eohHwsplvY
:)
I know how hard it can be to shift, especially when dealing with some very heavy issues. I've been in the pit more times than I care to admit (ooh, rhyming, OK) and am all for validating feelings and working them through. HOWEVER, I'm here to remind you it's possible to be happy and break through negativity that's spending more time on your doorstep than necessary. It's like leaving a bowl of milk on the door step for a cat who may be cute at first but then, well, not so much. Toss the milk. No stray cats. Let's go...
When you walk through life with an OPEN mind and heart, positive attitude and thoughts which affirm you AND your environment, you'll have an entirely different and much better time. Always.
I say be like Bob Ross with your perspective. Remember him? Awwwwww. LOVE BOB ROSS! I can remember being curled up in my parents' bed whenever I stayed home from school with a fever. I'd just watch him while drifting in and out of sleep. Happy little tree. That's a "Happy little tree." Bob called it "the joy of painting" for a reason! I can look at all areas of my life from that perspective. That's a happy little Lindsay making happy little choices in her happy little life. Doing her best, yep. Ironically, you maintain that attitude and "little" expands into big abundance, just like Bob's paintings come to life. They start with just a few a few colorful brush strokes and end up as gorgeous landscapes...
http://www.bobross.com/video4/wordfrombob8.html
See! It can be really fun to play with positive attitudes that fall on the high vibration side of the spectrum. You keep your power when you are the one who is optimistic, sweet, grateful, loving, generous, confident and at ease. Of course, it also helps to get into environments where going with the flow means going in a very positive direction. When you're working it out in an intenSati class, for example, you can feel the energy climbing and then you're on board and you're all creating this powerful energy together -- wow, it feels amaaaaaazing! Great stuff.
Today, just see about keeping the focus on yourself. I love to say in class "you're in the change game, not the blame game!!!!!" and in this case, it means stop blaming anybody else around you who might be negative. Let go of "you're bringin' me down" and settle into the "joy of painting" a life you are proud of and look forward to living!
Closing thought: I keep the focus on my attitude! I choose to keep a positive outlook and perspective because when I do I feel happier and more joyful!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
ANNOUNCEMENTS
*I am subbing tonight for Erika Shannon at 33rd/Park EQ at 7:30pm, yes!!
*I am going to be out of town on Sat., April 24th but I am arranging for fabulous subs to teach for me in Central Park and at 63rd/Lex EQ!
*I started a new Facebook group called "Monday 7AM intenSati at Equinox" for anybody who has taken or wants to take that class with me and start your week off on a positive, uplifting note!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Building Confidence (The Sequel)
Good morning!!
Well, yesterday's post was a bit brief because I woke up late not feeling well and was teaching at 7am. I don't want to leave you short-changed, so I'll pick up from where I left off, which was a discussion about confidence.....
Sooo, once upon a time I studied acting for about two years with the teacher Tom Todoroff in NYC. In class, I met a guy with whom I didn't seem to have that much in common but we really connected. His attitude was rebellious, style was edgy and talent was definitely raw but palpable and you can really see he had something. We became friends and did a scene from "Italian American Reconciliation" by John Patrick Shanley. Two Jews (with BA's from liberal arts colleges) pulling off working class Italians was not the easiest feat from my vantage point but we held our own and had a great, great time doing it.
Hilarious story -- when we were rehearsing in Sunnyside, Queens in an outdoor area near a fountain, we were working on a part where my character pulls a gun on his character. Well, I guess we were convincing because we attracted the attention of two cops who fast came over and intervened, but I mean, INTERVENED, as they thought I was about to go postal with my prop pistol. I had this moment where I saw myself getting arrested and having new material to send John Patrick Shanley (Hey John, have you thought about writing "Janice Goes to Jail: A Prison Drama") but fortunately we were able to explain to the cops that we were just two acting students and this was only a rehearsal.
We used to joke that if we could convince the NYPD we were for real then we were ready for the big time. :)
Well, we stayed in touch even after he left the class and eventually became very good friends. He's one of my biggest fans and vice versa, we support each other 100%, you know the drill. He has always been PERSISTENT in his belief that he will succeed as an actor and has had the same vote of confidence in me, no matter if I deviate, stop practicing, or pursue other things. Unlike me, who typically has about 6 creative balls in the air at all times, he's remained incredibly focused and devoted to his single pursuit -- acting. I was always amazed that he didn't start doing more with his time, like grad school or something. Just kept doing what he had to do to pay the bills while working on small gig after small gig -- student films, independent films, one act plays, etc. -- until he landed in a role at The Living Theatre, part of a play called "The Brig". The Brig originated back in the early 60's, I think, and it's the story of a marine corps prison. The Living Theatre brought it back under director Judy Melina and the ensemble cast won an Obie Award.
Cut to about 6 months ago (I think, my recollection of time is always a bit off) and my friend auditions to play a prisoner in a Metropolitan Opera production called "From The House of the Dead". He gets the gig. THE MET. I remember we ate dinner at Whole Foods one night before his rehearsal and I just couldn't believe it. I went to see him perform and it was actually my first time seeing an opera at the Met. You can imagine what a trip it was to see with one of my friends in the chorus of actors!
Well, one thing leads to another and he was cast in The Met's current production of "Armida", starring Renee Flemming. Yesterday, he texted me because he had extra comp tickets in the orchestra section. Apparently, it was the Premiere Gala which I did not know and thank god I packed my sandals and not just my sneakers, though I was still egregiously underdressed. Yikes. Just check out the stylistas who were there last night!
http://www.wcbs880.com/pages/6791909.php
I saw Christine Baranski up close and she looked amazing. A-mazing. :)
I had no idea what to expect and knew nothing about my friend's role. WELL, he had a HUGE role in this thing and by huge I mean SIGNIFICANT and by significant I mean he plays the character "REVENGE" in scenes directly opposite the main players including Jose Zapata and Renee Flemming!! Photo on my blog.
I was blown away. The opera was magnificent and also very weird, I don't know what to call it exactly but it was really amazing. I stayed for the full 4 hours and didn't fall asleep though I was only on about 4 hours of sleep and had been up since 5:30am. To see Isaac (that's his name) after the performance greet his family and friends before heading back inside for the Gala celebration, well, the whole thing just really took my breath away and brought tears to my eyes.
I walked home at about 12:15am last night crying softly. I wasn't sure why exactly. The music. The intensity of the whole thing. I really felt like time stopped for a few hours and I was transported to another place. It's why I love going to the theater so much. I also tend to weep when I'm shown the amazing or what I perceive as "impossible" can happen. I NEVER would have believed if you told me last year that Isaac would be in a featured role at the Met. Shame on me for being such a doubting daisy. I'm working on that for myself and others.
What does it have to do with intenSati? Well, it's because I am feeling really, really inspired by witnessing the growth and success of my friends and students who stick by themselves with grit and determination and just kept OWNING IT. Before the outside circumstances fully matched the desire my friend felt and belief he had in himself, he just went about his business, la la la, working, auditioning, trying, getting roles, getting passed over, rejections, up again, small break, bigger break, BREAK!!
He successfully and powerfully got the job done in a role he seemed born to play. Wow.
Between you and me, he came to one of my intenSati classes at Equinox and thought it was really hard. :)
Closing thought: My talents and passions are gifts that I honor by believing in myself. I play with confidence! I let go of anything that is out of alignment with the confident pursuit of my goals.
With xo and gratitude, Lindsay
Monday, April 12, 2010
Empowered to Rise: Building Confidence
Good morning!! Monday is here and it's such a powerful day for intention setting, so let's just get right to it!
One of the intenSati actions I teach this month is CONFIDENCE! Double punches right, double punches left!
Are you one of those people who tends to feel you're never quite ready to do something? Maybe you think you need a little more preparation, learning, study, growth, etc...
Or, perhaps you are on the other side of the spectrum and jump into things without much prep because you are full of desire, love and belief?
Don't give your power over to others by relying on them to build you up. Wait if you want to wait. Jump if you're ready to jump! But either way, whatever style YOU assume in any given moment, "Go confidently in the direction of your dreams."
Closing thought: I bring confidence and power into my day! I build myself and others up with positive praise.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Sati schedule update!
I'm subbing for Erika this Wed night at 7:30pm (33rd St)
One of the intenSati actions I teach this month is CONFIDENCE! Double punches right, double punches left!
Are you one of those people who tends to feel you're never quite ready to do something? Maybe you think you need a little more preparation, learning, study, growth, etc...
Or, perhaps you are on the other side of the spectrum and jump into things without much prep because you are full of desire, love and belief?
Don't give your power over to others by relying on them to build you up. Wait if you want to wait. Jump if you're ready to jump! But either way, whatever style YOU assume in any given moment, "Go confidently in the direction of your dreams."
Closing thought: I bring confidence and power into my day! I build myself and others up with positive praise.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Sati schedule update!
I'm subbing for Erika this Wed night at 7:30pm (33rd St)
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Empowered To Rise: I Am Happy Today
Good Sunday Morning!
It helps me to begin with gratitude for Sunday morning! Especially to take note of how nice it feels to just wake up in a peaceful place after a great day and low-key night. Apparently y'all liked yesterday's "L'eggo my Eggo" or "I let go of my ego" post verrrry much which felt really great!! In a non-egoic way, of course. Sort of. I don't know. :) Both intenSati classes I taught were really fun (Central Park; Equinox at 63rd St) and I saw my best friend from childhood's two little sons who are beyond precious. Such a good day.
I even cooked dinner -- some version of healthy moo-shu chicken -- and I didn't burn the cabbage. I usually dodge cooking 'dinner for 1' on Saturday nights. Single women all have their aversions. Some won't eat out at a restaurant alone and others refuse to see a movie by themselves. I am fine and enjoy doing either of those things. No worries. What I do NOT like is cooking dinner for myself by myself on Saturday night. It's a bit old fashion but I still think of it as "date night". Plus, it's like whatever that "space" is that "a relationship won't fill" just seems to become borderline cavernous between 8 and midnight on Saturday night! Downtime I'm craving could become a downer if I let it. Lately, I've been doing my best to keep things light and playful.
"I lighten up! I'm choosing me!"
I think what I am learning is if I settle into something with acceptance and joy it doesn't mean I am saying that I want to stay in that place forever. Enjoying being single isn't a prescription or intention for remaining single forever.
It's like being in Barcelona on vacation. You're kind of over Barcelona because you've been there so many times but it's part of the vacation package (you're on a tour). You can't wait to see Paris next and perhaps you are idealizing Paris. You've never been there but you want to go now! What are you going to do, cross your arms and stay in your hotel room, watch "Paris, J t'aime", toss the flan out the window and eat 6 croissants? No, no, nooooo!
You make the decision to enjoy Barcelona fully! Disfruta de la vida!! The train to Paris will arrive right on time and even if you get so wrapped up in Barcelona you're not thinking of anything else you won't miss the very loud whistle and "All aboard!" message if you remain open.
Same thing with being unemployed and job searching (been there done that and I am gratefully employed today) but refusing to allow yourself time to enjoy the freedom that not working obviously grants. Relaxing in between taking the actions to find work doesn't mean you're sending a message to the universe that you don't want to be working. Probably letting go of guilt or any shame and doing some things you've always wanted to do, whether it's catch up on a few great novels or pick up a new hobby like tap dancing or yoga, will put you in a better place to attract a new job you love. You'll be feeling more joyful so when it's time to interview you'll prove your competence and bring a light spirit. Employers like happy, competent people.
Today can be a day to gratefully accept your present circumstances and enjoy! In letting go of the idea that the future is going to be so much better than the present we can dispel that very common "I'll be happy when..." mentality and rise to an "I am happy today because...".
Closing thought: I lighten up. Whatever my circumstances are today, I choose to embrace and accept them with love and gratitude!
Speaking of which...
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Join me today at lululemon atletica in Union Sq for FREE intenSati at 9:30AM!!
If you are a member of Equinox or want to try a class (free guest passes available) I am teaching this week at:
Monday 33rd St at 7AM
Wed 33rd St at 7:30 PM (subbing for Erika Shannon)
Saturday 63rd St at 12:45PM
Have a GREAT day!!
It helps me to begin with gratitude for Sunday morning! Especially to take note of how nice it feels to just wake up in a peaceful place after a great day and low-key night. Apparently y'all liked yesterday's "L'eggo my Eggo" or "I let go of my ego" post verrrry much which felt really great!! In a non-egoic way, of course. Sort of. I don't know. :) Both intenSati classes I taught were really fun (Central Park; Equinox at 63rd St) and I saw my best friend from childhood's two little sons who are beyond precious. Such a good day.
I even cooked dinner -- some version of healthy moo-shu chicken -- and I didn't burn the cabbage. I usually dodge cooking 'dinner for 1' on Saturday nights. Single women all have their aversions. Some won't eat out at a restaurant alone and others refuse to see a movie by themselves. I am fine and enjoy doing either of those things. No worries. What I do NOT like is cooking dinner for myself by myself on Saturday night. It's a bit old fashion but I still think of it as "date night". Plus, it's like whatever that "space" is that "a relationship won't fill" just seems to become borderline cavernous between 8 and midnight on Saturday night! Downtime I'm craving could become a downer if I let it. Lately, I've been doing my best to keep things light and playful.
"I lighten up! I'm choosing me!"
I think what I am learning is if I settle into something with acceptance and joy it doesn't mean I am saying that I want to stay in that place forever. Enjoying being single isn't a prescription or intention for remaining single forever.
It's like being in Barcelona on vacation. You're kind of over Barcelona because you've been there so many times but it's part of the vacation package (you're on a tour). You can't wait to see Paris next and perhaps you are idealizing Paris. You've never been there but you want to go now! What are you going to do, cross your arms and stay in your hotel room, watch "Paris, J t'aime", toss the flan out the window and eat 6 croissants? No, no, nooooo!
You make the decision to enjoy Barcelona fully! Disfruta de la vida!! The train to Paris will arrive right on time and even if you get so wrapped up in Barcelona you're not thinking of anything else you won't miss the very loud whistle and "All aboard!" message if you remain open.
Same thing with being unemployed and job searching (been there done that and I am gratefully employed today) but refusing to allow yourself time to enjoy the freedom that not working obviously grants. Relaxing in between taking the actions to find work doesn't mean you're sending a message to the universe that you don't want to be working. Probably letting go of guilt or any shame and doing some things you've always wanted to do, whether it's catch up on a few great novels or pick up a new hobby like tap dancing or yoga, will put you in a better place to attract a new job you love. You'll be feeling more joyful so when it's time to interview you'll prove your competence and bring a light spirit. Employers like happy, competent people.
Today can be a day to gratefully accept your present circumstances and enjoy! In letting go of the idea that the future is going to be so much better than the present we can dispel that very common "I'll be happy when..." mentality and rise to an "I am happy today because...".
Closing thought: I lighten up. Whatever my circumstances are today, I choose to embrace and accept them with love and gratitude!
Speaking of which...
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Join me today at lululemon atletica in Union Sq for FREE intenSati at 9:30AM!!
If you are a member of Equinox or want to try a class (free guest passes available) I am teaching this week at:
Monday 33rd St at 7AM
Wed 33rd St at 7:30 PM (subbing for Erika Shannon)
Saturday 63rd St at 12:45PM
Have a GREAT day!!
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Breakfast Talk
Good morning!! A Saturday morning breakfast treat in my house growing up was Eggo waffles. You remember Eggo waffles, right? "L'eggo my Eggo!" bah dah bum. My family wouldn’t get fancy with too many toppings, just some margarine (back when that was considered a healthy alternative to butter) and Aunt Jemima syrup.
So, the reason I thought about Eggo waffles this morning is that I’ve been grappling with some ego issues of my own and, ahem, waffling between versions of myself that are either content and peaceful or incredibly frustrated. (I'm also pretty bored of my oatmeal, let's be frank.)
Good news is that it’s been really uncomfortable. Ridiculously, amazingly uncomfortable. So much so that I think I’ve reached what some of my friends like to call “a rock bottom” with it and I have the power to grant myself a do-over, starting now...
The source of my frustration? A sense of inadequacy, overarching desire to impress, disproportionate set of perfectionistic expectations and very harsh, judgmental inner critic. Yummy. In that frame of mine, I am overly sensitive to what other people think about me and susceptible to people’s advice, suggestions or offerings (and by offerings, I can mean another person’s praise or negative opinion of me).
As most would attest, self-centered worrying about what others might be thinking, coupled with the rational understanding that MOST likely others are NOT thinking about me AT ALL does not a happy person make. When you know intellectually that people generally are thinking about about what they had for breakfast (waffles or otherwise) or perhaps what they want to have for lunch but most certainly NOT about you, but you emotionally you think they have you on the mind or wish they did, well, that’s beyond uncomfortable.
In the intenSati series I’m teaching this month, one of the affirmations is “I am playing for the win.” I am an athlete and love sports as well as the mentality that there are goals to accomplish and games to win. However, what I am now learning is that the games and wins are by design. My design. In other words, if I want to frame a win as “I go out today and do MY personal best at what I love” and go for that win, I will be peaceful and joyful. On the other hand, if I go out to gain praise, attention, approval or any kind of external egotistical validation, I am setting up a LOSE/LOSE because either I’m not going to get it (perceived loss #1) or I am going to get it and will suffer all the more for it because that kind of attention is meaningless, ego-validating fluff (loss #2) that becomes a deceptive form of 'nourishment' that really isn't healthy at all.
So, I guess the point of this morning’s post is about looking at what your priorities are and asking yourself why you’re doing what you do and what you’re really going for this time around? I just had the image of an Eggo waffle blown up and used as a float in the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade. Now I see it popping. :)
Happiness, I believe, comes from loving what you do and living with core values like gratitude, self expression, service and, I believe, deep pride in your work. Easier said than done? Of course. Impossible? Of course not.
One more thing, as I just found out on YouTube while searching Eggo waffle commercials (one below, for your morning viewing pleasure) one of the slogans was “no two look the same” and there we have the truth spoken. We are all unique and in our differences we create a wonderful diverse world of people and, well, choices for breakfast (sometimes I carry a metaphor a wee bit too far). :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-OCXV8Hch8&feature=related
Closing thought: I let go of my ego.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
So, the reason I thought about Eggo waffles this morning is that I’ve been grappling with some ego issues of my own and, ahem, waffling between versions of myself that are either content and peaceful or incredibly frustrated. (I'm also pretty bored of my oatmeal, let's be frank.)
Good news is that it’s been really uncomfortable. Ridiculously, amazingly uncomfortable. So much so that I think I’ve reached what some of my friends like to call “a rock bottom” with it and I have the power to grant myself a do-over, starting now...
The source of my frustration? A sense of inadequacy, overarching desire to impress, disproportionate set of perfectionistic expectations and very harsh, judgmental inner critic. Yummy. In that frame of mine, I am overly sensitive to what other people think about me and susceptible to people’s advice, suggestions or offerings (and by offerings, I can mean another person’s praise or negative opinion of me).
As most would attest, self-centered worrying about what others might be thinking, coupled with the rational understanding that MOST likely others are NOT thinking about me AT ALL does not a happy person make. When you know intellectually that people generally are thinking about about what they had for breakfast (waffles or otherwise) or perhaps what they want to have for lunch but most certainly NOT about you, but you emotionally you think they have you on the mind or wish they did, well, that’s beyond uncomfortable.
In the intenSati series I’m teaching this month, one of the affirmations is “I am playing for the win.” I am an athlete and love sports as well as the mentality that there are goals to accomplish and games to win. However, what I am now learning is that the games and wins are by design. My design. In other words, if I want to frame a win as “I go out today and do MY personal best at what I love” and go for that win, I will be peaceful and joyful. On the other hand, if I go out to gain praise, attention, approval or any kind of external egotistical validation, I am setting up a LOSE/LOSE because either I’m not going to get it (perceived loss #1) or I am going to get it and will suffer all the more for it because that kind of attention is meaningless, ego-validating fluff (loss #2) that becomes a deceptive form of 'nourishment' that really isn't healthy at all.
So, I guess the point of this morning’s post is about looking at what your priorities are and asking yourself why you’re doing what you do and what you’re really going for this time around? I just had the image of an Eggo waffle blown up and used as a float in the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade. Now I see it popping. :)
Happiness, I believe, comes from loving what you do and living with core values like gratitude, self expression, service and, I believe, deep pride in your work. Easier said than done? Of course. Impossible? Of course not.
One more thing, as I just found out on YouTube while searching Eggo waffle commercials (one below, for your morning viewing pleasure) one of the slogans was “no two look the same” and there we have the truth spoken. We are all unique and in our differences we create a wonderful diverse world of people and, well, choices for breakfast (sometimes I carry a metaphor a wee bit too far). :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-OCXV8Hch8&feature=related
Closing thought: I let go of my ego.
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Friday, April 9, 2010
Empowered To Rise: The Past Is Over & I Am Grateful
Good morning!
One of the affirmations in this month's series is "The past is over" and I pair it with the action for GRATITUDE. My implication when I wrote the series was to be grateful that the past is over. I was thinking about how toxic it can be to stay in memories, whether it's letting positive ones linger or regrets reside in your brain and heart well after the fact, because it just zaps you out of the moment. And the moment, as we all know, is where life is happening!
I think a more peaceful way to think about the affirmation is to be grateful for what actually happened in the past. So then it becomes about reminding yourself of the obvious -- yes, yesterday is history -- and wrapping your past in a comfortable gratitude quilt for all it contained. There are so many ways to say thank you and so many ways to frame things, it's like the many wonderful, colorful patches on a quilt. Yesterday, I sent a gratitude list to someone and didn't put her on it even though not a day goes by where I don't thank my lucky stars she is in my life and incredibly present for me. I realize this morning that although I thought it was understood in the email, when you say it, when you really tell someone how grateful you are to have them in your life, it's more powerful than when it's implied. People aren't mindreaders, after all...
I think the guns - n - roses song goes "yesterday's got nothin' for me" but I disagree. It does. It's got a lot for me in that it gives me an opportunity to practice gratitude and find positive ways to interpret what's happening in my life. From there, life starts to flow a little easier.
Can you open yourself to creativity and the practice of gratitude this morning? What happened yesterday that you feel grateful is done? Also, what happened yesterday that you feel really grateful even happened? Is there someone in your life for whom you feel gratitude where perhaps it's implied? I say use your words and be direct today! Tell them how grateful you are for their presence, yes, tell them how you feel...
Yesterday is more than just yesterday.
Closing thought: I welcome the truth -- that my past is gone and I am here in this moment, happy to be alive and face the day. I am grateful it is done and I am also grateful it happened. I feel really good when I express my gratitude!!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
One of the affirmations in this month's series is "The past is over" and I pair it with the action for GRATITUDE. My implication when I wrote the series was to be grateful that the past is over. I was thinking about how toxic it can be to stay in memories, whether it's letting positive ones linger or regrets reside in your brain and heart well after the fact, because it just zaps you out of the moment. And the moment, as we all know, is where life is happening!
I think a more peaceful way to think about the affirmation is to be grateful for what actually happened in the past. So then it becomes about reminding yourself of the obvious -- yes, yesterday is history -- and wrapping your past in a comfortable gratitude quilt for all it contained. There are so many ways to say thank you and so many ways to frame things, it's like the many wonderful, colorful patches on a quilt. Yesterday, I sent a gratitude list to someone and didn't put her on it even though not a day goes by where I don't thank my lucky stars she is in my life and incredibly present for me. I realize this morning that although I thought it was understood in the email, when you say it, when you really tell someone how grateful you are to have them in your life, it's more powerful than when it's implied. People aren't mindreaders, after all...
I think the guns - n - roses song goes "yesterday's got nothin' for me" but I disagree. It does. It's got a lot for me in that it gives me an opportunity to practice gratitude and find positive ways to interpret what's happening in my life. From there, life starts to flow a little easier.
Can you open yourself to creativity and the practice of gratitude this morning? What happened yesterday that you feel grateful is done? Also, what happened yesterday that you feel really grateful even happened? Is there someone in your life for whom you feel gratitude where perhaps it's implied? I say use your words and be direct today! Tell them how grateful you are for their presence, yes, tell them how you feel...
Yesterday is more than just yesterday.
Closing thought: I welcome the truth -- that my past is gone and I am here in this moment, happy to be alive and face the day. I am grateful it is done and I am also grateful it happened. I feel really good when I express my gratitude!!
With xo and gratitude,
Lindsay
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Empowered To Rise: Game Changer
Good morning!! I hope this message finds you well. :)
I mentioned that you’ll be hearing a lot of sports metaphors from me this month. I LOVE THEM! Soccer is my favorite sport and I'm a big believer that so many things I learned on the field are relevant in my daily life, too. Hey, btw, did you know there is a new reality show looking for the next international soccer star? Yep! It’s called “Soccer Aces” and for men and US tryouts are in Houston on 4/10. www.socceracestv.com. :)!
Have you heard the phrase “game changer”? It's that moment when the course of events shift in another direction. If we are talking about sports and soccer in particular (I never need an excuse to talk about soccer. Ever!) the game changer may be when your team is down 1-0 with 10 minutes left and a sub is brought in off the bench. Within two minutes she scores a goal. Then, 4 minutes later, another goal, putting your team in the lead 2-1! The entire momentum's shifted and your team holds the 2-1 lead right until the end of the game!
Well, today’s the day I want you to create your own game changer!!
Yesterday, I went ahead and registered for a 3 1/2 day “Singer/Songwriter Retreat” at a beautiful place in Vermont called Good Commons. A weekend of rest, yoga, songwriting, optional performing (though I’m certainly jumping in with both feet and performing, yes, we like that option!), and some coaching by a music industry exec and accomplished musicians – hello!!! Dream vacation. Music is a huge passion of mine and I want to take the songs I’ve already written, dust them off and bring them to life. This retreat will be the perfect way to help get over some of my artist insecurities, too! Not to mention the fresh air and beautiful natural setting, something I’ve been craving. I can’t wait. :) It’s in 2 weeks and for the first time I'll be writing my morning daily "on the road" and from a spot where I will be honoring my desires and living my dream.....
Game changer!!!!
I know it. I felt it when I registered. Clearing away the fear, yep. Playing with two feet in, YES! I felt this little dolphin flip in my belly.
What can you do and where can you create experiences that will guide you towards the fulfillment of your dreams?! Can you enjoy or at least be present to every step, song, note, phrase, and experience along the way today?! Are you open to attracting and receiving a game changer?
One more thing. Sometimes things happen that you only recognize to be game changers in hindsight. That’s why it’s so important to keep an open mind to whatever you are experiencing today and practice gratitude for it all. You never know who your encountering or what circumstances can lead to which is why – and I’m totally learning how to do this – you should really not negate anything!! Not negate. That’s a very very double double negative negative. :) Appreciate and validate instead!
Closing thought: Today is all about the GAME CHANGER!! I am grateful for the events and shifts in my attitude that change the momentum and carry me in the direction of my dreams!
SATI SCHEDULE UPDATES
EQUINOX
Friday: I am subbing for Natalia at 6:30AM tomorrow at 17th St! High cardio burn – msg me for a guest pass!!
Saturday: My class is 12:45pm at 63rd/Lexington!
Monday: My class is at 7AM at 33rd/Park!! EARLY MORNING SATI – LOVE IT!!!!
FREE classes this weekend:
Saturday: 10AM in Central Park! Msg me for info!
Sunday: 9:30am at lululemon in Union Square!
I mentioned that you’ll be hearing a lot of sports metaphors from me this month. I LOVE THEM! Soccer is my favorite sport and I'm a big believer that so many things I learned on the field are relevant in my daily life, too. Hey, btw, did you know there is a new reality show looking for the next international soccer star? Yep! It’s called “Soccer Aces” and for men and US tryouts are in Houston on 4/10. www.socceracestv.com. :)!
Have you heard the phrase “game changer”? It's that moment when the course of events shift in another direction. If we are talking about sports and soccer in particular (I never need an excuse to talk about soccer. Ever!) the game changer may be when your team is down 1-0 with 10 minutes left and a sub is brought in off the bench. Within two minutes she scores a goal. Then, 4 minutes later, another goal, putting your team in the lead 2-1! The entire momentum's shifted and your team holds the 2-1 lead right until the end of the game!
Well, today’s the day I want you to create your own game changer!!
Yesterday, I went ahead and registered for a 3 1/2 day “Singer/Songwriter Retreat” at a beautiful place in Vermont called Good Commons. A weekend of rest, yoga, songwriting, optional performing (though I’m certainly jumping in with both feet and performing, yes, we like that option!), and some coaching by a music industry exec and accomplished musicians – hello!!! Dream vacation. Music is a huge passion of mine and I want to take the songs I’ve already written, dust them off and bring them to life. This retreat will be the perfect way to help get over some of my artist insecurities, too! Not to mention the fresh air and beautiful natural setting, something I’ve been craving. I can’t wait. :) It’s in 2 weeks and for the first time I'll be writing my morning daily "on the road" and from a spot where I will be honoring my desires and living my dream.....
Game changer!!!!
I know it. I felt it when I registered. Clearing away the fear, yep. Playing with two feet in, YES! I felt this little dolphin flip in my belly.
What can you do and where can you create experiences that will guide you towards the fulfillment of your dreams?! Can you enjoy or at least be present to every step, song, note, phrase, and experience along the way today?! Are you open to attracting and receiving a game changer?
One more thing. Sometimes things happen that you only recognize to be game changers in hindsight. That’s why it’s so important to keep an open mind to whatever you are experiencing today and practice gratitude for it all. You never know who your encountering or what circumstances can lead to which is why – and I’m totally learning how to do this – you should really not negate anything!! Not negate. That’s a very very double double negative negative. :) Appreciate and validate instead!
Closing thought: Today is all about the GAME CHANGER!! I am grateful for the events and shifts in my attitude that change the momentum and carry me in the direction of my dreams!
SATI SCHEDULE UPDATES
EQUINOX
Friday: I am subbing for Natalia at 6:30AM tomorrow at 17th St! High cardio burn – msg me for a guest pass!!
Saturday: My class is 12:45pm at 63rd/Lexington!
Monday: My class is at 7AM at 33rd/Park!! EARLY MORNING SATI – LOVE IT!!!!
FREE classes this weekend:
Saturday: 10AM in Central Park! Msg me for info!
Sunday: 9:30am at lululemon in Union Square!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Empowered To Rise: I'm Choosing Me
Good morning!!! It's going to be 86 and sunny today in NYC. 86 AND sunny!! I will be in the office and have my lunch at this adorable little spot a few blocks east of me that has a waterfall. I will bring a book! 86 AND sunny...
One of the affirmations I am teaching this month in my intenSati classes is:
"I'm choosing me!"
Whichever word you emphasize changes the meaning of the phrase considerably, right? Let's focus on placing an accent on the first word, a compound of I AM. "I'M choosing me" gives you this feeling of really taking back your power! Like a lot of people, I have a tendency to fall into this sensibility that I am waiting to be chosen by someone else to receive something I want. By who? It's a sizable list: by a man, casting director, editor, agent, taxi driver during rush hour, anybody running a lottery or contest, such as, oh, a free cruise (turned out to be a scam but you probably knew that!) ...
There's a reason why "A Chorus Line" is one of the most popular musicals of all time and so many people relate to the, "God, I hope I get it!" refrain. Who can't identify with feeling, at one time or another, like one of many in a chorus of hungry people wanting to be chosen for a seat at the feast?
Now, I'm Jewish and so technically I'm already a member of a "chosen" group (capital C) but I don't leverage that feeling into my daily life too often, though I know some do, and maybe I should start now. :) It's painful to live in a constant state of unrequited desire and WAITING while giving over your feelings of agency and power to someone else.
It can make you feel like an 11 year-old with your hand up in the front row of earth science class -- "Oh, oh, oh, I know the answer!! It's an amoeeeeeba!" -- and then crying in the bathroom when not picked.
There is such power in choosing yourself to be the recipient of your own deep love and appreciation. We can be SO good at dolling it out -- he/she is so talented, stunning, lucky, blessed, deserving of success, etc. Today, can you give that same kind of attention, positive praise and props to YOU? After a few years of intenSati, I now breathe a sigh of relief when I release self hating voices and settle into a place of self love and positivity, because I really DO believe I am extraordinary and lovable! YEP!
You know you're making progress when shitting on yourself feels like throwing on a really old jacket that's not only out of style but also totally shrunken. It will not fit, it will not close and that's a good thing. It's also made of itchy wool. You don't like wool. Never did. Can't understand how people wear it. My point!? YOU WANT TO FEEL GOOD and that means old thinking or behavioral habits are just not going to jive with you anymore.
When you choose to TREAT YOURSELF REALLY WELL it can feel weird at first but then, I swear, it's like you eventually start feeling like Goldilocks AFTER she finds the right bed. It's like, ahhhhhhhh, YES, this is true. This is right. THIS GOODNESS IS WHAT I TRULY DESERVE AND WANT! I ALLOW IT NOW!
It's exciting, it really is :) I would use neon, glow-in-the-dark font if that were an option here...
Closing thought: I choose ME to receive LOVE and GOODNESS. I give it to myself and I allow the world to give it to me.
With xo and gratitude! Lindsay
My intenSati classes this week......
Friday at 6:30AM at 17th St subbing for Natalia -- msg me for a guest pass!
Saturday at 10AM in Central Park -- FREE!
Saturday at 12:45PM at Lex/63rd EQ -- msg me for guest pass!
Sunday at 9:30AM at lululemon in Union Square -- FREE!
One of the affirmations I am teaching this month in my intenSati classes is:
"I'm choosing me!"
Whichever word you emphasize changes the meaning of the phrase considerably, right? Let's focus on placing an accent on the first word, a compound of I AM. "I'M choosing me" gives you this feeling of really taking back your power! Like a lot of people, I have a tendency to fall into this sensibility that I am waiting to be chosen by someone else to receive something I want. By who? It's a sizable list: by a man, casting director, editor, agent, taxi driver during rush hour, anybody running a lottery or contest, such as, oh, a free cruise (turned out to be a scam but you probably knew that!) ...
There's a reason why "A Chorus Line" is one of the most popular musicals of all time and so many people relate to the, "God, I hope I get it!" refrain. Who can't identify with feeling, at one time or another, like one of many in a chorus of hungry people wanting to be chosen for a seat at the feast?
Now, I'm Jewish and so technically I'm already a member of a "chosen" group (capital C) but I don't leverage that feeling into my daily life too often, though I know some do, and maybe I should start now. :) It's painful to live in a constant state of unrequited desire and WAITING while giving over your feelings of agency and power to someone else.
It can make you feel like an 11 year-old with your hand up in the front row of earth science class -- "Oh, oh, oh, I know the answer!! It's an amoeeeeeba!" -- and then crying in the bathroom when not picked.
There is such power in choosing yourself to be the recipient of your own deep love and appreciation. We can be SO good at dolling it out -- he/she is so talented, stunning, lucky, blessed, deserving of success, etc. Today, can you give that same kind of attention, positive praise and props to YOU? After a few years of intenSati, I now breathe a sigh of relief when I release self hating voices and settle into a place of self love and positivity, because I really DO believe I am extraordinary and lovable! YEP!
You know you're making progress when shitting on yourself feels like throwing on a really old jacket that's not only out of style but also totally shrunken. It will not fit, it will not close and that's a good thing. It's also made of itchy wool. You don't like wool. Never did. Can't understand how people wear it. My point!? YOU WANT TO FEEL GOOD and that means old thinking or behavioral habits are just not going to jive with you anymore.
When you choose to TREAT YOURSELF REALLY WELL it can feel weird at first but then, I swear, it's like you eventually start feeling like Goldilocks AFTER she finds the right bed. It's like, ahhhhhhhh, YES, this is true. This is right. THIS GOODNESS IS WHAT I TRULY DESERVE AND WANT! I ALLOW IT NOW!
It's exciting, it really is :) I would use neon, glow-in-the-dark font if that were an option here...
Closing thought: I choose ME to receive LOVE and GOODNESS. I give it to myself and I allow the world to give it to me.
With xo and gratitude! Lindsay
My intenSati classes this week......
Friday at 6:30AM at 17th St subbing for Natalia -- msg me for a guest pass!
Saturday at 10AM in Central Park -- FREE!
Saturday at 12:45PM at Lex/63rd EQ -- msg me for guest pass!
Sunday at 9:30AM at lululemon in Union Square -- FREE!
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