2 shows down and 3 to go. The Winter Comedy Fest' is alive and kicking.
Last night, I went to dinner after the show with some friends, two of whom I know from the same acting class. We talked about the lessons we learned -- that when we act and go to the theater we look for truth on stage. It may be subtle or obvious, something you observe consciously or feel in your gut. If it's not truthful, you'll know. You'll probably want to get up out of your seat and leave. Or, go to the bathroom. Even when a piece is heightened, over the top, silly, or completely exaggerated, when it comes from truth, it still works.
The freedom most of us felt at one point or another as a child can get lost into adulthood. Many of us who are seekers are looking for it again and again. Sometimes in the wrong places, of course. It's the freedom of feeling your rightness in the world exactly as you are, which usually allows speaking, doing and feeling in any way, without fear of punishment, judgment or the rejection of love.
Love pulled out from a child is like a tablecloth being yanked from a beautifully set table by an amateur magician. The effect is disastrous. When love is pulled away there is always a change. Where'd my love go? I need that love right now. What do I have to do, who do I have to become, how do I have to monitor myself, how should I be pleasing, what has to changed for the love to come back? The child moves, instinctively, to solve that mystery. Often into adulthood.
This process of trying to figure out who we have to be to find love often gets mixed up with the quest of self discovery. We think there's more to learn but what if that's just being confused with a simple knowing that you can just be yourself and loved deeply, unconditionally and wholeheartedly. Enough is enough.
I am obsessed with this song by Gotye (feat. Kimbra) called SOMEBODY THAT YOU USED TO KNOW. If you've never heard it or seen the video, ENJOY! I want to choreograph a dance and perform it with friends.