Accelerating, Committed and In Love

Good morning! I hope you're springing into April and really enjoying the energy of the new month. The intenSati series I wrote for April starts off with the following affirmation:

I am accelerating and it is liberating!

I am enjoying growth, movement and expansion in my body and in my circumstances. I am procrastinating less and doing more, but most importantly I am doing what is aligned with my heart's deepest desires. There is a speed at which things are happening and I seem to be discovering answers to questions I've been considering for a while. I feel the freedom from new growth, most obviously in the area of my devotion to acting. I'm back in class working on scenes and monologues. I'm in rehearsals for a short film that shoots end of the month. I'm writing a play for me to act in -- this will be my second for production -- and my heart is completely in it.

With less distractions, I am able to focus more and really live another affirmation in my series, which is:

I choose my commitments and give 'em all I've got!

It is my goal to no longer over-extend myself. My plate used to get too full at the expense of what I was heaping onto it and I am done with that way of living. I can't say yes to everything and everyone. I don't want to anymore. I am also looking at the thoughts to which I'm choosing to commit. The stories. I am committed to a love story. I fall in love with life. I fall in love with myself, with all my imperfections. I fall in love with my history, my past, my trials and my recoveries from a few falls.

I am in love!

It is a beautiful thing to be "single" and in love at the same time. In many ways, it's the best of both worlds since I am living to unlock the door to love before someone else is even required as the object of my affection. To go so deep into the depths of myself means releasing many old fears. Many doubts. Many old stories.

I surrender
my doubt
I am love
inside and out.

It is a quieter time for me, now, my happiness so much less contingent upon outside factors and more about just being lovingly attentive to myself. It's taken a long time to get to this place but I am grateful to be here now, even though the unfamiliarity and simplicity of it all can be daunting. Or, humbling. It could've been this easy all along?

Best,
Lindsay