Friday, January 20, 2012

Love as Cause

"It's the cause that gives the tidal wave. You don't wait. Do not wait until you're healed. Stay in the place of depth. Keep listening. Find what touches you deeply. Deeply. Don't negate the love." -Louise

Bill W did not wait until he was a 'cured' alcoholic or with 10,000 members of AA to write the Big Book. The first 100 were the ones who came together, pooled their wisdom and ended up producing a book of instructions and personal narratives which effectively changed the entire course of addiction treatment throughout the world.

If you're waiting for something, stop. You're already in a position to do what you need to do, with all prior experiences being exactly what you needed to experience as your perfect preparation for today's cause of choice.

I'm told.

The most important thing I can do today is love myself. The second most important thing I can do is love others to the best of my ability. For today, that is my cause. Loving.

And, once love is the cause, it causes a ripple, a wave, a flow, an expansion, a connect-the-dots illustration of goodness. It elevates, excites and builds.

How I practice self love today is for one thing, by going where the love is and focusing on those people who truly love and appreciate me for who I am. It's by eating very nourishing foods. Moving my body in class. Treating others with kindness and respect, even those I don't understand, especially those I don't feel aligned with today. I soften the thinking in my head so I'm not beating myself for anything, ever. I dress in a way that is comfortable for my body, head-to-toe. I cultivate gratitude for my present circumstances so I feel how abundant my life is today.

"I don't go to the hardware store for oranges." (Actually, I go to Whole Foods for my oranges, which are organic, and a great winter fruit.)

If I do the above, I will likely FEEL and BEHAVE in a way that supports my health, my well being, my life in flow. If I don't, I will feel tired, crabby, depleted and alone. That doesn't mean I'm any less of a person if I don't show up for myself in a truly self-loving way, it just means I'm not fully exercising my power of choice.

#inspireitforward

Love,
Lindsay

Friday, January 13, 2012

Declaring Victimhood Dead

I wrote this in ten minutes at 8:30AM today, so there are more than a few typos. One things to note is the quote listed below who I wanted to clear permission to credit is from my intenSati mentor Patricia Moreno (www.satilife.com) who continues to lead so many people in a successful conversion from victim to warrior. ~LBD

Morning, sunshines! I'm consistently engaged in the cultural conversation that centers around the meaning of empowerment and more specifically, what it means to play the victim and how to STOP.

My mentors call me out on it, the people I most admire don't do it (or catch themselves and choose another way), I have inspiring family members who've successfully changed the v in victim to Victory, my Jewish brethren are defined by "They wanted us dead, we survived, let's eat" and I have progressed significantly in this arena.

But, alas, there is still some drippy victmy thinking I hold onto. Everything from feeling sorry for myself for time wasted, believing it's too late to have certain things I want career wise, pitying myself for hair issues that concern an area of thinning that 99% of the people I speak to don't notice but I do so it must be fodder for my victim writer, you get the picture.

By becoming aware at first I was so disturbed and frustrated because I didn't get why I was STILL holding onto such stories. As people ask me to ask myself, "What's the payoff?" The obvious payoff of playing the victim in your own life is you don't have to put yourself on the line and risk failure. By making excuses you can always explain away why something didn't happen. Or, maybe you just get the 'benefit' of being taken care of by people who like to take care of victims. They can be very nice.

I was just advised (and once I get clearance to say who advised me I will give credit where credit is due, but for now, she'll remain anonymous) to, "Love her but break the spell she puts on you!" This refers to what I call the Victim Player. Love her. I think I did love her yesterday when I cried like a baby in midtown after a long day and before rehearsal. Listening to the chorus of victim thoughts the VP gives before going to a real chorus rehearsal of beautiful singers praising love, light, God and peace was quite a transition. I promise you I felt much better after rehearsal.

It wasn't about becoming the most empowered woman in the world but releasing the grip of the Victim Player, which lead to none other than a peaceful calm state of being and feelings of gratitude. So, I would say that's probably a good sing you know you're letting go.

NIKE says Just Do It but heroes in their own lives say Just Don't Do It. Really. Take any victim story you're writing and put the pen down. Walk away from the page. Thank it for serving whatever purpose it did. Then, pick up the new pen and rewrite something new that, if you showed it to someone, would not garner an "Awww, I'm sorry, honey. That must be really hard" response. Save those for the BIG things and I'm sure there are a few, not the little ones, if you know what I mean.

For a while, it will probably feel uncomfortable, scary and new. Maybe even lonely. You might doubt you have the strength to declare victimhood dead. You may have to do it over and over and over again to keep your commitment. BUT, I believe fully it will bring about a wonderful change in your life as it has in mine (when I've applied it, which I have many times, YAY) and the other amazing people I know who declare victimhood dead.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

I Love Joni Mitchell

Joni Mitchell is one of the greatest singer/songwriters alive and whenever I listen to her music, I am instantly transported to whatever world she is painting in her lyrics and melodies. She speaks from a place of such searing honesty that even if the subject is painful, I'm comforted. I'm excited about a new book coming out in 2013, tentatively titled "Blazes All Across The Sky: Writers Respond to the Poetry of Joni Mitchell", by Three O’Clock Press of Toronto. Joni considers herself "a painter first, and a musician second" which is proof positive artists who find ways of expressing themselves in multiple forms don't necessarily need to be considered spreading themselves too thin.

Enjoy!

I woke up it was a Chelsea morning and the first thing that I saw
was a sun through yellow curtains and a rainbow on my wall
blue red green and gold to welcome you
-JM





Saturday, January 7, 2012

Healthy Escapes

Good afternoon and greetings from (sunny and warm!) Philadelphia --

Here working on a travel story for BBC.com and having such a great time already since arriving last night. I went out to about 6 different music venues and after getting a dose and taste of the scene, I slept like a rock in a quiet hotel room. (I had been up since 5:30am for an early morning intenSati class, so it was a long day.)

I wanted to blog quickly on how grateful for I am for my commitment to health and supportive community of healthy friends, so I can encourage you (if you need any encouragement or further validation) to do the same. When chatting with people about this blog what I realize is I want to just add to the chorus of uplifting voices that give people a little added health and wellness mojo. It's also about a space for feelings and expression to be OK, which is a lesson I feel like I wish I knew earlier and like to pass along as often as possible.

Doing both helps you and it helps me keep MY commitments, so I would say it's a good, positive relationship.

Last night I ran into many a drunk, high and chain smoking kid and I say this with zero judgment, just awareness, that I am happy I am able to go out and hear live music without having to play like that. I drank diet cokes and water, munched on my apple, and got home at an hour that is far from witching but perfect for me. I tend to feel sad when I see people so drunk they could barely stand (of course I see this in NYC as well when I go out which really isn't that often these days since I prefer early rising) and some people can enjoy/get away that sort of thing without major disruption to their lives. For those who can't, well, they'll come to that awareness eventually and hopefully before anything detrimental.

It's a gorgeous day and when I was sitting this morning in Rittenhouse Square, drinking coffee, people watching and writing, I felt the same degree of gratitude I would feel if on my honeymoon in Paris. It was beautiful and I don't know how that is but sometimes there is just this zone I get into that is pure gratitude and love. Sometimes it happens at home but ALWAYS it happens when I am removed from the city (Vermont at Good Commons, Shelter Island, Tuscany/Rome, now Philly), which says something but I'm not sure what yet.

All I know is traveling and "getting away", even if it's just a few hours away from NYC to the City of Brotherly Love, gives me this peaceful sense that I am free. I just loooove feeling FREE.

Stress zones are like mine fields, potential emotional explosions usually rooted in some kind of discontent or frustration, best carefully avoided and in the long run, completely cleared. Escapes from these zones are wonderful and seeing new places with fresh eyes, explorer eyes, child eyes, and grateful eyes with the kind of curiosity that brings answers, knowledge and new experiences is so incredibly refreshing.

So, wherever you are, from Philly to Paris, London to Ibiza (yes, J Lo, you are with me even today), give yourself a little healthy escape. #inspireitforward

Best,
LBD

Friday, January 6, 2012

Goals or No Goals

Good day, readers!

I've shared on this blog about my experience as a soccer player but for those who don't know, I played my whole life, including two seasons of D1A Varsity at Cornell. I quit only after 3 surgeries on my ankle from soccer injuries including a fibula fracture, staph infection and torn ligaments that were reconstructed in July 2010.

While you can take the girl out of soccer, you can't take the soccer out of the girl nor can you remove the main principle, which is to see a GOAL and score. Seeing soccer balls in the back of the net makes me happy. Scoring goals feels like as much a part of my DNA as a sensitive stomach (restraint of pen and tongue here, so badly do I want to give the details on that) which is why I was struck when I came across advice in one of my favorite newsletter/blogs, ZEN HABITS, telling me to give them up.

The post is called HOW TO HAVE THE BEST YEAR OF YOUR LIFE WITHOUT SETTING A SINGLE GOAL and it's actually a guest post by Jeff Goins. But I remember this wasn't the first time hearing the concept from ZEN HABITS, so I searched and found the post THE BEST GOAL IS NO GOAL which is from July 2010 (exactly date 10 days after my surgery, actually) and by Leo Barbuta himself. Leo credits huge leaps and successes in his life, from professional to personal. Instead of goals he embraces habits, instead of plans he embraces passion and instead of fixed destinations he encourages, well, having an open mind:

And there’s the rub: you have to open your mind to going places you never expected to go. If you live without goals, you’ll explore new territory. You’ll learn some unexpected things. You’ll end up in surprising places. That’s the beauty of this philosophy, but it’s also a difficult transition. ~Leo Barbuta

When I think about 2011, most if not all of the coolest things that happened to me professionally, including my short play SUSPENDED getting into two festivals (both of which I acted in), joining a cool theater company, performing in 6 plays, doing an on-air entertainment report for BBC America, teaching various fitness classes for BeFit NYC, healing my ankle, witnessing the beautiful growth of Central Park intenSati, writing music and travel stories for BBCA.com and BBC.com/Travel, all happened without a plan AT ALL. What I set out to do in early 2011 was get healthy, powerful, strong, abudant, more creative, and happier. I wanted to see growth the many areas of life, which I did, without saying exactly what I wanted to do or how.

So, to some extent I've released a goal setting mentality, even though I definitely keep these milestones in the back of my mind as some markers or measurements of my dreams coming true.

I don't have any answers and will not tell you what to do. What I will say is that if you DO want to work from a goal setting mentality, that's great, but don't forget to do what so many people suggest, which is, to enjoy the journey. Metaphor Alert -- every pass, dribble, tackle, loss of the ball, header, throw in, and shot on goal is meaningful. It's not just about scoring. And it's certainly not just about the win.

And if you don't want to do goals, I can say what's worked for me is just matching the FEELING of something really good -- LOVE, JOY, PEACE, CREATIVITY, HAPPINESS, ABUNDANCE, GRATITUDE -- and then asking the Universe to lead me to those opportunities, people, places and things that bring those same feelings to my being. It's like asking to be lead by way of the feeling you want to evoke by choosing to feel those feelings first. Coaches and the like call this law of attraction by way of cultivating good vibrations.

With all the joy, pain, turbulence, inspiration, thoughts, feelings, relationships, experiences and challenges, life is just a day at a time venture, so whether you're going for the goals or taking a knod from Zen, just embrace the way you find your way.

#inspireitforward

Best, L

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Join the Ranks of the Encouraging

Morning. Frozen out here in NYC, omg. I just took intenSati at Equinox Fitness and it warmed me up body, mind and spirit. Definitely a great start to the day.

It's really easy to get discouraged on the topic of weight.

Easy, because it's familiar.

Discouraged, because of how ingrained the habit is to find comfort in food, stress relief in food, pleasure in food, energy in food, joy in food and play out some of my self sabotaging vis a vis overeating. It's been a long time and releasing it all is a day at a time journey, some days more challenging than others.

There is also the truth that bodies differ and some settle at a certain weight. It may be a little higher than the thin ideal and that can be challenging to accept.

What does it takes to be loving to yourself with respect to body image? What does it take to join the ranks of the encouraging?

For one thing, recognize that hating on your fat is completely learned and can, therefore, be unlearned. I'm not saying you need to sit and accept it without looking to lose weight. If you're overweight and healthier eating habits are a goal of yours, great, but at least in the meantime you could act as if you see no reason to judge, shame, hate on or over-scrutinize your body.

What I'm finding incredibly useful at this point is to just focus on other things -- helping others, new ideas, creative projects, etc. -- and think less about my body.

"We are visitors on this planet. We are here for ninety or one hundred years at the very most. During that period, we must try to do something good, something useful, with our lives. If you contribute to other people's happiness, you will find the true goal, the true meaning of life." H.H. The 14th Dalai Lama

Personally, I am very motivated to work out but less motivated to change the way I eat. The former comes much more easily to me (witnessed - I walked to a 6:30 am aerobics class in 13 degree weather) and the latter takes work. It takes attention. A willingness to be uncomfortable. Ask for help. Surrender my will. Feel fear. Accept that I will not be perfect but I'm making progress. All that good stuff...

All this to say, join the ranks of the encouraging. Don't try to make changes alone and be willing to arrive at your desired outcome.
Do it gently, do it patiently, do it lovingly, but do do it. :)



Best,
Lindsay

Monday, January 2, 2012

Resume an Old, Healthy Habit

Good morning!

There is coffee by "Chat n Brew" in my mug right now that tastes like "Tar n Cigarettes". Nasty. I'm meant for better things today, so I'm not going to start off my morning with that agreement...

What I did start off with on this January 2, 2012 morning is 5 minutes of meditation, which involved sitting still on a folded up quilt, Indian style, and breathing deeply. Then, I read excerpts from two Hazelden books, A TIME TO BE FREE and
EACH DAY A NEW BEGINNING.

The first book was a gift from my uncle 15 years ago. The second, a gift from a friend about 2 years ago. They've been collecting dust.

This practice of meditating and reading a positive piece of writing at the start of the day is one I used to do but stopped because I didn't have enough time.

For the purpose of this short post, italics represent excuses. Who can't find 5 minutes in the morning to put a healthy buffer in between teeth brushing and breakfast?

What healthy habit or practice can you dust off, pull out of the archives and resume today?

For the purpose of this short post, bold font represents an inspired action. If you don't have one in your archives, start with the 5 minutes of meditation. I'll even give you the two take-aways from my Hazelden books as a prompt:

ATTBF: I can continue to be ruled by the voices of the past -- or, I can work toward changing my perceptions and actions today.

EDANB: Creativity is a given. It is another dimension of the spiritual presence guiding us all. I'll get out of its way today.

I'm off to Grey Dog. GOOD coffee awaits!

#inspireitforward

:)

Best,
Lindsay

Sunday, January 1, 2012

NYD 2012

Holy shit it's 2012. Already!

Time is ticking.

REALLY, really, ticking.

Get the priorities in order.

Cut the crap.

Release the extra weight.

Abandon "energetic anchors."

"There is nothing that burning desire plus positive belief can't make real."

Reframed --

Things become real through wanting and feeling and believing

you deserve it.

LOVE!

JOY!

PEACE!

HAPPINESS!

PASSIONATE LIVING!

every day!

for all 365!

(Ok, maybe not EVERY day. But many days. MANY days!)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

#inspireitforward

:)